Randomness

It is usually difficult to forget some things. The more we know the harder it is. However the less we know, the more we want to know. Humans are complicated. 

Thankful the less I know but yet trying to fill in the rest that I don't know.. 

Haha! Randomness truly! One of the days when random thoughts just came to me.. 

Happy birthday to me!

A great day started with my favorite breakfast at cedele!! Awwwww.. So yummy!! :) then followed by attending a good friend's bb 1st year and left quite shortly to celebrate my birthday!!! :)) 

Dunno if I was a bit under weather but today I felt better physically leh! Didn't feel good when we reached Vivo, but.... I finally tried Poulet!!!! Yummy dinner :))) really loves the chicken, so much so much so much better than KR please! Oops, not to offend KR fans haha! 

Then moved on to MBS! Well changed a fair bit, hasn't been here for a while and it changed, should come back to shop again! 

Well, the highlight of the day is my bdae present that hubba asked me to think/dream abt since last night!! Haha! No doubt I also like that PRADA (not prata) bag, maybe is abit too much I am getting a bag every year and he be bursting his budget for me again >.< haha! So decided to go with his suggestion of a watch! And must be tissot cos couple watch, and cannot be longines or Rolex cos he doesn't own one get so cannot skip him. I am loving the new watch! :) thanks hubba! Muacks! Yes a hole burnt in his pocket but at least within his budget :P bag can wait for the dunno how many bdaes later :) 

Awww and the little girl is also the highlight with her super messy way of eating her mash. But I must say it indeed kept her occupied, hubba is still the best when dealing with her! Haha! Is good each parent is good at different thing I see. Hubba for fun and mama for some serious learning! Haha... So what does horse say???? :P 

Tonight...

Last Friday I had a fright and sad Friday night with the hubba and Abby. But, God is gracious and merciful! I have Abby with me tonight :) thank God for keeping watch over her.. Amen! 

The cheeky little girl and tyrant of my life :) but I am loving every bits of it! 

Abby is home!

Is great to hear from morning that Abby be coming home. As the clock ticks, and each time the nurse wants to take her temp, my heart will pause. Of cos I also took her temp on my own before the nurse does. 

After this episode, it taught me so so so much. Needed to pen down the thoughts. I am very thankful to God for protecting the little one. Started from at the clinic when I felt I didn't received much help from the doc and receptionist, perhaps I can do a better job. I heard a voice telling me to sponge her, thus while they telling me to go to Kkh, I was sponging her and bringing her temp down. It was a very very scary experience when a person who was responding just suddenly stopped and started to throw fits. No joke it scared the shit out of me. 

Very thankful to God for how He used Abby to encourage me. Coming back to Abby each morning, I will make sure I pray with her as we walk. It assures me and I felt very encourage whenever she can resound back with an "amen!" It reminded me of the faith like a mustard seed. I dunno if she is even aware who God is, but it encouraged me so much. It just tells me that she is doing well and God is working in her and with her.

Very thankful that now she is fine and is able to come home. It is so saddening to come back to an empty home. walking past her room seems so emo, and it makes me miss her so much. She is such a big part of my life. Am just so happy and glad that I have the hubs and Dottie back tonight, and nothing else matters. All in all, health is still the most impt assets.  

Looking back, I felt I didn't play a good role. Should have taken her to doc earlier. Should have sponge her more. Should have given the right dosage. It takes such a painful lesson to know. Lord, please grant me the wisdom I need in caring for the little one.

Abby is unwell..

Tonight is he first night that I goes to sleep without Abby with me. I felt very loss, she is such a big part of my life. I really missed her so so so much. I really hope she gets well soon, if I can I rather be the one down with fever. Lord, please have mercy on the little one and send Your healing hands upon her. In Jesus' name I pray, amen! (Abby will say amen with me too) 

So true... 

Thoughts..

I am surprised to hear what was shared. I think because I didn't expect it to be you. The story is just like what I went through except a role changed. I also think overtime I have grown, my naive-self thinking everyone is nice and knowing right from wrong seems to have shattered and I seems to beginning to see the world. 

I asked God why it was surfaced again. Why when I so badly wanted to forget and moved on and yet it had to haunt me again. I think I know God is teaching me sth. I had suppressed it but I have yet to let go. Prayed for her which brought both of us to tears. I dunno how to pray but I know it was needed at that moment. 

I think it must be hard for her. Even if the man decided to leave the wife to be with her, she will still be the one get hurt the most. Guilt will continue to torment her. Sometimes I wonder why do ppl want to marry when they can't stay faithful. Similarly, why try to break a family when u didn't want it to happen to ur own family? And no consideration at all to the children, if any. This week is the 2nd time I am hearing "I am the product of my parent's failed parenting". I don't wish Abby be saying such things when she is older.    

I dunno. I dunno if I can be helping her. I dunno will she fall again if he decided to text tml? If one knowing is wrong and yet cont to sink in, I think is unforgivable and I don't even know if I can even face her. I am hating the situation she is in but yet I can't hate her.

However, I think somehow I know that God is definitely working in me which is comforting to my soul. 

I'm held by Your love

Finally found this photo as I browse through my album. 

Looking at how daddy holding Dottie in his arm reminded me of how my Heavenly Father held me in His arms and how apt the song "I'm held by Your love" is. Guess I nv truly understand the lyrics but seeing this I do. Thank God.