aint happy when you are unhappy.
these few days woke up having the reluctance to do something..
and there's this unsettled feeling inside me for very long, it is so unusual for it to be inside for so long..

maybe my focus has shifted..
today read In The Upper Room, i realised i haven spend ample time with Him.
my focus over the last period wasnt on Him, which is my fear..

last night, u told me i am cautious, yes i think i am..
on one hand i didnt want to discourage you and on the other hand i wanted to prepare myself
i wish to have the time to imagine abit, to adjust abit, to get myself ready..
i didnt feel happy going back these few days.. i do feel discouraged and disappointed too.. i do feel the difference..

sometimes i wonder is it i cannot read you well enough..
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remaining still, knowing that You are God, the one in control.

finally........

i went to Henderson Waves yest night! (: (yes Ivy, please see this and feel guilty
it is really really beautiful.. great to have you ard..
thank you for searching with me.. (no thanks to your attempt to scare me! hurmp!)
(was kinda disappointed if we gonna miss this and head for sentosa instead...)

thanks for being so patient & really nice towards me..
really appreciated it and thank God for you!

didnt know that u have such an intention behind it..
anyway didnt know how the convo geared towards u revealing it.. but i do appreciate that thoughts..
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slept late last night and finding myself waking up at 5am...
then i cuddled myself and went back to sleep, waking up again at 610am, so tired..
decided not to follow dad's ride to office..

i really wasnt showing any attitude.. hai... :(

Praise to the Lord, Almighty

Praise to the Lord, the Almighty,
the King of creation!
O my soul, praise Him, for He is thy
health and salvation!
All ye who hear,
Now to His temple draw near;
Sing now in glad adoration!

Praise to the Lord, who o'er all
things so wondrously reigneth,
Who, as on wings of an eagle,
uplifteth, sustaineth.
Hast thou not seen
How thy desires all have been
Granted in what He ordaineth?

Praise to the Lord, who hath fearfully,
wondrously, made thee!
Health hath vouchsafed and, when
heedlessly falling, hath stayed thee.
What need or grief
Ever hath failed of relief?
Wings of His mercy did shade thee.

Praise to the Lord, who doth prosper
thy work and defend thee,
Who from the heavens the streams of
His mercy doth send thee.
Ponder anew
What the Almighty can do,
Who with His love doth befriend thee.

Praise to the Lord! Oh, let all that
is in me adore Him!
All that hath life and breath, come
now with praises before Him!
Let the Amen
Sound from His people again;
Gladly for aye we adore Him.

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indeed, Praise to God for His wondrous work!

(:
am glad weekend is here again!

am blogging to motivate people to blog... what an irony..
was blogging in faithbook, but decided to change to cont here, reason being, i wanna do a whole break down of what God spoke to me in Colossians! haha... think that will take me awhile...
but aint it cool to share what God spoke in details? (:

hasnt been blogging for awhile as i was writing my thoughts in a separate document...
i never once let anyone read my diary except for an open blog like this..
therefore, treasure it! (: (i know you will)

work for the past few days had been a killer... maybe also cos of the long breaks in dec and jan, hence, work seems hectic... just closed my accounts for dec 08 and now i am closing for jan 09... how fast time flies!

now the next thing to look forward to is drill competition in mar! the major event of the year!!
laying things down at His feet and knowing that God is in control...

CNY has been rather different this year, maybe cos visited pastor boon seng & aunty pat, and visted Wen wei & Bee lan, people i have never visited before.. and it was really interesting...
had lunch with pastor and dinner with WW... and that's how i spent my 3rd day of cny..

as for 2nd day, went over to Lawrence's place in the morning, it was a nice trip.. and special note: the dog is soooo cute still.. haa... i do have a good impression of the family too, nice and friendly (at least to me). after which was my place, elisa and ph came along.. (: and lastly dinner @ sharon's place... nice hospitality.. guess by then i am too tired to even help out and all... (:

1st day is the usual thing, with me being at grandma's place early in the morning then home the rest of the day.. it ended off with Lawrence coming over to my place at night and having us bringing my siblings out for a blading session and pool... (:

that's mostly what has been happening so far and i am happy.. (:
thanks again for always driving me around...
thanks too for being around..
and many thanks for the things u have done... (: