2 more weeks to my only paper....
and i am way behind.. think i nv learnt my lesson, even though this time round i started the earliest among all my exams in SIM.

guess i have to make plans for overnight studies... (:
whole of next week gonna be on half day leave each day, really needed the discipline to start revising... hmmm thinking of place to park myself...
HK cafe is too far from work....

been trying to catch up on sleep, haha, but my efforts were to no avail..
last night was tired, but chatted with avril all the way till abt 4am!
it was a good time chatting with her... was so amazed by her! haha
thanks for accompanying me to enrolment too..

hmmm enrolment.....

How wide is Your love
That You would stretch Your arms
And go around the world
And why for me would a Savior's cry be heard

I don't know
Why You went where I was meant to go
I don't know
Why You love me so

Those were my nails
That was my crown
That pierced Your hands and Your brow

Those were my thorns
Those were my scorns
Those were my tears that fell down
And just as You said it would be
You did it all for meAnd after
You counted the cost
You took my shame, my blame
On my cross

How deep is Your grace
That you could see my need
And chose to take my place
And then for me, these words I'd hear You say

Father no
Forgive them for they know not what they do
I will go
Because I love them so

after You counted the cost You took my shame, my blame on my cross

-what a wonderful love-
i heard this on one of the night services in church. it was so beautiful.

elisa called today! yeah i was happy to hear ur voice.. (:
thanks for listening to me... yeah you can be praying for me on that..

for the others, well, just share in summary... haha
i have some areas of concerns in my heart, and the funny thing is i know what God wanted me to learn from it. haha got that inspiration as i shared with elisa. indeed, i should hold on to the faith that He will guide me even when i fear.

elisa asked me if after making those decisions, will i have time for myself? i wondered... haha
but if i reject, she will be a burden in my heart, if i accept, i fear for my inadequacy. if i reject, someone may come along the way to guide her, if i accept, can i hold her there and help her grow? aiyo.... decisions again.... hai...

maybe cos it speaks of commitment... am i committing too much? but i enjoy the process..

aside to tay, so nice of u to remember to update me abt ur date. (: hope my advise on ur planning helped.. no worries abt the rejection now, is not a failure anyway. shall see after exam, concentrate first! should give some room and concern during this period of preparation la... (: okie a step taken... (: -guess u said u wanna show me e photo, bluffing me again?- haha

i am so glad that sy decided to stay..
was so sad yest when i knew abt it, though i knew her for barely half a yr.
guess the friendship we had, made me felt so affected by it.
didnt expect the impact on me, but i guess like what boss said, the dept has really bonded well.
i thank God for this, esp since is my first job.
had an opportunity to finally answer her qns to me, didnt know how to explain to her when she asked what is my makes me carry on life/motivated each day (something along this line).
told her are friends, but i guess is people ba, so that i can show the love like Jesus do to me.
God create nice opportunity when we have patience to wait. (:

finally down with presentation!
thanks my fren for picking me from sch (:
appreciated that...

two more weeks to easter!
however, the death/resurrection of our Lord should be in our hearts everyday, every moment. for that holds a victory sign that Jesus had accomplished His mission for the uworthy.

Qt hasnt been good for some time, been doing a few days of reading in a day.
guess due to busyness...

Last week was bad...
had 3 nights of 530am and waking up at 730am...
and i was late for work for a day at least.
no doubt i can sleep late, but with work, guess i cannot anymore.
i always remembered daniel tan(sim lect) said before since we are young, sleep less, spend more time on earning $. ahaha... money is not earn this way, there are other more impt stuff to spend on - like God, family, friends!

last sat met e drill com, and my dear AI AI is getting married! (:
Jasmine! my prayers for you is that your relationship be God-honouring and God will bless you both. (:
she has been the closest one to me in drill com, guess cos we entered together, and still remembered how we got messed up as jami lee and jasmine tan! (: so nice to have you back seriously!

this week, celece is leaving and i will be on my own solely to do the sg acc. gosh!
but i know the Lord has been faithful, whenever fear creeps in, He will send peace and reminded me of Him. just hope that this month sales will be fine... - holding on close to HIM -

this month will be a testing month as i see it, a test of time management... dealing with work, sch, assignments, various activities... wow! but i guess will be over soon, since when we are busy, time pass fast..

been busy with the SBA test to actually update my blog..
thank God for the good paper on thurs, had a good time writing and God, had once again, shown His greatness to me by His peace upon my heart. (: this down, more to come in mar... another management report gonna due on this fri. hmmm guess should try to finish by thurs.. hmmm..

after my paper, went to NUS to give cousin a SURPRISE visit. i admit that i simply cannot play pranks on others, is proven, yes. (:

just thought of cousin that week so decided to visit her after my paper since i am nearby as well.
thank God that law joined in, and i was spared the 'supposed' taxi rides. (: and i really appreciated that. (:

the roads within NUS really driving us mad. been traveling the same roads up and down, guess ppl who have seen us passing by wondered too. and is not funny, gosh! so tiring. still thank God for a little amusement during the 'agony' haha!

guess we were paying so much attention to the road names, and we found this! - 'Law Ling'
haha, guess the first time law found a road named after him! -.-
(i alighted to take this pic btw)



















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met up with leaf, ying and zibin for lunch on sat. haha, had a long discussion on 'is it ok to lie to save a life', well... had some insight from zibin's sharing. shared abit with him also abt how i wish to undergo trials like some do at times, and guess what he said was true, in fact each day i may be battling with something, but perhaps due to conscience, i chose to do the right thing. well, i think it will boil down to remaining faithful in Him and to read His word so as to fall back on Him, who is my foundation.

met up with the 02s21 peeps at night.
didnt realised an easier route to jalan kayu from my hse till that day. alright, i am still learning anyway. (:

thanks to tay who helped me to get my way there, was so amazed by his details - 3nd (2nd or 3rd?) bus stop after turning into jalan kayu, and passing the home and shell on my right (which was actually left), walked 20 steps in the same direction and i will reached (it took me more than 60 steps and i was still a dist away) nonetheless, i still appreciate ur details. ^-^

is so nice to see the old classmates again.. though is the usual group, it brought back lots of fond memories of those time in tpjc. (: thanks to marvin for the ride back, despite his early church svr on sun. (:

and........ i was late for church on sun... :(
i woke up at 740am by a call, and headed back. i was so tired.
nearly fell asleep during sermon, but it was an interesting one though, and of cos the sudden ringing of my phone woke me too -.- haha...

i guess the topics covered/going to cover in church are getting more and more interesting to me. (; which is a good thing, makes me look forward to sermons on sundays.

Chimpanzee (Pan Kun) and Dog (James) team up for situps

posted this on my tpjc blog and terence was addicted to it! (: so decided to post here for my other friends to enjoy. (: rather hilarious, how smart these animals are.

just my thots..

we know the facts abt Him, but sometimes we can lose focus on Him. This is because everything we say is knowledge, is no longer from the heart. This is the time, i feel, should hang on to God. Having that simple faith to trust in Him and to hold on tight, to never let go.

We can give excuses to run away, even though we know what we should do.
when Jesus walked down death walkway to die on the cross for us, He did not give excuses, He did it out of obedience.

indeed, it is a hard battle, but you are not fighting this alone! Deu 31:8 The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you... You have the Lord going through this period with You. when you cant feel it in the heart, pray and ask for a renewed heart. (: believe. to me, you can lose the passion but never lose sight of God.

last night, i was reminded that QT is not necessary the reading of the bible, it can be simply prayer to commune with Him. If your heart cannot commit to reading, perhaps take a small step by working on prayers first. (:

and i thought of this song, guess i posted it before. (:

Trust His Heart
Written by: Babbie Mason and Eddie Carswell

All things work for our good
though sometimes we can’t see how they could.
Struggles that break our hearts in two
sometimes blind us to the truth.
Our Father knows what’s best for us;
His ways are not our own.
So, when your pathway grows dim,
and you just can’t see Him,
Remember He’s still on the throne.

God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don’t understand,
when you don’t see His plan,
When you can’t trace His hand, trust His heart.

He sees the Master plan.
He holds the future in His hands.
So don’t live as those who have no hope.
All our hope is found in Him.
We walk in present knowledge,
but He sees the first and the last.
And like a tapestry, He’s weaving you and me
to someday be just like Him.

God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don’t understand,
when you don’t see His plan,
When you can’t trace His hand, trust His heart.
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when you cant trace, you trust. (:

dont cry! (not sure how i can tell you... so decided to blog since you are the next freq visitor.)

i still remembered when you told me a few years ago that you were accepted and going to embark a new journey, i also had my whiny period... haha! thinking back, it is part and parcel of life... (:

let this be the time for you to encounter Jesus more! indeed, you grew alot too i realised when you were there... perhaps the environment pushes you to trust in Him more. So, grab Him again this time round! like i said, we will be on da phone again on like 24/02/2008?!? (: -let me dig out the piece of ODB that you read for ur QT tat yr-

will keep you in prayers... oh i was smiling reading your blog..

it makes me feel happy when friends around me are happy...

come back for more movies, thai express, ur prata-s, suppers, lunches, dinners.. (:

Casting Crowns - Praise You In This Storm

for you cuz (:

Casting Crowns - Prayer For A Friend

Today's meditation

When the Lord speak, do i hear?
am i still to listen to what He has to say to me?
has my heart been still and to keep a lookout for Him?
He has been there, i know, but do i seek Him?

reminder: (myself as well as the others) God should be fundamental. (:

realised time has been passing fast... we are coming to the end of feb & CNY gonna be over. it felt like yesterday i just celebrated the entering of 2008. (:

today's meditation allows me to reflect on my weekly activites. day in day out, i will be busy with something. though work took up most of my week, i still have time for the others. i can foresee more coming. whenever in times like this, i wonder why i can give time for other stuff but yet left so little for the Lord. i should have an ETWG soon. (:

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Assignments are here to haunt me again... (:

this week OB down.. and SBA will be next..

but this week is only 1000 words essay, by right it shouldnt be that tough i guess but is abt squeezing the idea into 1000 words that is difficult ba.. elisa said 1000 words she did it in a day.. for the past weekend i only have half a day each..

one thing i am thankful for is my new laptop! (: i got it on last sat which makes proj easier. in addition, the softwares are already installed! am really thankful for that. thanks law for the time put in too!

me and ying had the 1st CE, played Saboteur with them. thanks to sok i managed to get the game. playing with different grps is so diff, girls here are more predictable whereas playing with the drill peeps, i am predictable to them... urgh! cos i simply cant bluff, yeah too innocence a face... anyway hope they enjoyed and pray for more great time to come. (: i am encouraged by their expectation of the grp as well, majority said to see a relationship build in this grp and to know God deeper. thank God for this desire they have. (:

and yesterday, the usual clicks had dinner at my place ever since a long time. thanks elisa for coordinating! am really not in the mood to do the liasing, i know u are pms-ing but thankful u did it in the end! (: love ya to the max la...

yeah and is 5 days left....

i am SLEEEPY! (:

guess due to the lunch.... had a not-so-bad and a far lunch with elisa and law.
but meeting ppl is worth the walk.. maybe next time suntec! (:

PRAYER FOR A FRIEND - CASTING CROWNS
Lord I lift my friend to You.
I've done all that I know to do.
I lift my friend, to You.
In complicated circumstances with clouded view.
Lord I lift my friend up to You.

I fear that I won’t have the words that he needs to hear.
I pray for Your wisdom , oh God.
And a heart that's sincere.
And Lord I lift my friend up to You.

Lord I lift my friend to You.
Though he's my best friend in the world,
I know he means much more to You.
I want so much to help him,
but this is something he has to do.
Lord I lift my friend up to You.

There's a way that seems so right to him.
But You know where that leads.
He's becoming a puppet of the world.
Too blind to see the strain.
And Lord I lift my friend up to You.

Lord I lift my friend to You.
I've done all that I know to do.
I lift my friend, to You.

the words in this song has been ministering to me.
been thinking about it ever since i heard it, i wonder how often do i actually pray for my friends.
alot of friends came to mind when i was thinking of the lyrics, nice song indeed.

since on the topic of frens, i made a new sec 1 friend last mth. only spoke to her on msn but i have nv met her. well going to tml since heading back to SHS. interesting. when i knew her, she asked me alot about myself, whether i like praise and worship, whether i love talking to God (prayer), and church and all. i am amazed by the faith she has especially at such a young age! i truly thank God for her. because when she asked, it was like a checklist for myself. (: and she love prayers as much as singing praises, simply because she love to talk to GOd. such a wonderful girl. (: is this considered simple as well? i guess so.. (: i thank God for how our paths crossed.

okie and elisa is leaving next sat! that's sad... for her... haha...
well, thank God for the technology so we can still hear each other. oh i love the bookmark btw, and i told her i bought a card for her. yeah, shall only give her on that day! dont be too touch and cry, cos i am not bringing bucket with me. (:

oh! i am getting my lappy today! (: that's fast.. and i gonna have a high creditor!
(at work, we have 60days credit terms with my creditors btw) alright just kidding...

Happy Valentine's Day! (:

overlooking the sea, makes me envy with the speedboats and yatchs...
i am tired & sleepy. sent sze off early this morning, woke up at 3am! am glad i went, guess is too early in the day, cousin & viv were too cranked up as well. oh and janice came.. (:

be prayerful for sze, the trip will take her a long day, probably she will reach at night.
sometimes i wonder, what if God calls me for mission and going alone?? hmmm... i prefer accompany, can i tell Him that? (: talking abt this reminded me of the children in thailand, i missed din and don. well... kor shared with me he gonna strive to be financially free in the next 3 years and plant church in Africa.. woot! amazed... means i should save and visit him when i can (:

today's meditation is taken from Romans 8:28
"... in everything, God works for the good..."

Max Lucado presented this rather interestingly, the emphasis is on 'everything' hence, replace it by things in your life. For me, that will be..

In life, God works for the good.
At school, God works for the good.
At Work, God works for the good.
At home, God works for the good.

indeed, it is to focus on the heavenly perspective of God then to dwell in our worldly thinking. and God works for the good of those who love and trust in Him. hence, what ever situations we meet, it has a purpose. we will know in God's time. 2 words summary: Trust & Faith

i have been thinking abt my new lappy.. not that i have gotten but am still deciding.

initially was browsing ard apple.com and kinda attracted by mac. but see, i am not one who focus only on outlook appearance, inner beauty counts!

my criteria are simple - durable and cheap cheap! (: lightness and appearance i consider them as value-addedness. many i asked told me to just take mac - that's it. hmmmm.... but they gave me funny reasons to convince me:

colleague - "you got the mac look - aka one who goes for something that is nice and stylish"
(wont be surprised, since another colleague said before i look like a punk to her -.- oh no.. i am not btw)

alicia - "you wouldn't want to change once you get used to mac"

others - "is nice!"

ELISA (this is funny and the most irritating to me i guess ^_^) - "you have the tai-tai look, can imagine u sitting in a cafe and click here and there like a tai-tai" & "mac has the drooling factor"

oh no... she is spoiling my image for sure to call me that. i dunch wanna the name tai-tai neither do i like tai-tais, that is wasting my life heh. what a friend i have to say that! haha, you can carry ur own baggages *hint* -wont get angry with you, just having seconds thought of driving you ard- (:

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thanks to that fren above i got some pics from jac's bdae & BS.. (:

at NSRCC Chalet..

played cards with eileen and elisa till 5am on friday..

look @ the many cards she had...next moment, they slipped off.. & she is funny la, entertained

me alot thru the night

jac cant take it... decided to catch some nap..

some photos taken during BS on eve of CNY...

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here are some photos taken on mon 11/02/08 - meeting up with the souljourners.

supper at Yong He.

sze is leaving on 14th Feb @ 6am... which means she will be at e airport at 4am. keep her in prayer for journey mercies. so much that i will want to visit her, there are limitations. haha.. okie shall plan for it someday.

my spiritual life...

i been thinking abt my faith. so much that i will want to take the step of faith for baptism but i dunno to wait or go ahead. the exercise we did some sundays ago is taking effect. i knew i will reach this point somehow. God i need signs, am i dumb to catch it? so??? hmmm... kor said to fast and pray. to this, i am unsure.

okie...

5 days of rest... back to work tml. time passed so fast when u are enjoying yourself.

started with supper on tue night with ting and law... then managed to catch the gang for our BS on wed.. truely i enjoyed the sharing each time with u girls..

first day of CNY, nothing much. as usual went over to grandma's place, and came back home. this yr CNY kinda special yet not, special that i shared Christ with a young cousin of mine and shared with kor abt baptism, e rest is the same. spent the night with oi and elisa @ mac.

2nd day of CNY was spent with proj! my forecast and budgeting again... that was be4 my movie though...

KungFu Dunk down with the usual ppl... CJ7 is the next, anyway ph brought down my expectations already, i am that easily influenced i admit. and some more in the list....

3rd day, my hse was opened and only the churchies peeps came... after which was to alicia's hse till night.. spent time playing citadels, bangs, and well for some rubik cube.. haha

And dad upset me - for nagging at the same issue. well... haha... the funny part was...guess he felt guilty abt it thus he became so nice and decided to bring me to get a laptop. and yes, i rejected in the end! haha...
nah, not being mean... told him i will look ard first and not impulsive in my decision (hmmm, sounds familiar huh) wanna get something durable and within budget (:

sunday as usual, had lunch with the churchies after serv, and finally saw sze today! that was the highlight of the day i guess.. only remember her top that made me feel so warm for her! and she is still the same old her... missed her much..

that's abt all for CNY hols i guess.. realised spent alot of time with the peeps in my e-grp recently.. ali,ter, and law.. cos they were the few faces popping up as i was blogging, simple as that..

today, i found myself a mom! haha... guess she is more like a nanny or PA to me... seriously, thanks for breaking the stuffs-to-do down for me, it really gave me a clearer picture and i do hope that God will guide me as i guide the team. thanks too, for the inspiring sharing on leadership, i hope i can truely apply them, just like the sermon today for me - Be Strong and Courages. looks like many things to accomplish soon, i pray for a good team to work with.. (: especially since is a new role for me...

this week being reading on the book by Max Lucado (kinda a long ago bk) - 'He chose the nails'
it really speaks to my heart, especially since i am doing on Cross Road with the church. shall share more after i finish it... all i have to say for now is that, THANKS FOR THE CROSS.

I want to know you more
In the secret
In the quiet place
In the stillness
You are there

In the secret
In the quiet hour
I wait only for You
Cause, I want to know You more

Chorus:
I want to know You
I want to hear Your voice
I want to know You more
I want to touch You
I want to see Your face
I want to know You more

I am reaching for the highest goal
That I might receive the prize
Pressing onward
Pushing every hindrance aside
Out of my way
Cause, I want to know You more.

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Yes yes, i want to know You more and deeper each day. Let Your presence fill my everyday.
BECAUSE You are worthy of my praise!

I will give, you all my worship
I will give, you all my praise
You alone, I long to worship
You alone, are worthy of my praise

I will worship, with all of my heart
I will praise you, with all of my strength
I will seek you, all of my days
I will follow, all of your ways

I will give you, all my worship
I will give you, all my praise
You alone, I long to worship
You alone, are worthy of my praise
You are worthy of my praise

I will bow down, and I'll hail you as king
I will serve you, I will give you everything
I will lift up my eyes to your throne
I will trust you, I will trust you alone

I will give you all my worship
I will give you all my praise
You alone I long to worship
You alone are worthy of my praise

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Thanks for sharing with me under the rain on sunday, what you have shared is like an answered prayer for me, and i thank God for it. my prayer will still be that God will help us to overcome.
and i am truely encouraged by what you have shared, indeed is not easy to share abt one's past especially when it was hard going through it.
i thank God for you too..

been hearing people around me are falling sick! oh.. take lotsa care ppl!
the flu bug is here... and i think i am one of the culprits that is passing it ard! oops.. sorry peeps..
but will be praying for u guys to recover soon (:

went to jac's chalet yesterday night and had a great time simply playing cards with elisa and eileen. hardly knew eileen well, but it was really fun to have her ard i realised. though only the 3 of us, leaving the other 2 in lala-land, we played till 5am in the morning. (: (jac simply cannot understand why we can be playing for that long though, neither can i)

okie, moving on to my spiritual life, God taught me alot from the study of Jude and during my QT. my next step will be to increase my QT time to an hr... also hope to be able to have at least an ETWG once a mth. looking at the many things i have on my 'plate', seriously i do not have an idea where can i find time for it. but, i know if i sincerely want to, God will provide. (:
i am so encouraged by looking at how my e-grp spend their time reading God's word, moving from one book to another, it speaks of consistency.

i believed my prayers were answered - a simple sms tells it all. throughout last week service, a constant prayer i uttered was for Him to speak to her, and i believed He did! (: it warmth my heart to see lost sheep been found.

and............ my dear ms lee sze sze is coming back tml!!!! (: missed her much... pray that she will be able to get back in time despite the heavy snow that caused traffic obstruction.

PhewW! today is the date for submission! like finally....
sometimes i wonder why do i even take up accountancy when i dont like to do budgeting and forecast...

as usual i am bored @ work.. but rather tired today
past few night been sleeping for less than 4 hrs, yet infront of the comp for more than 10hrs?
okie, maybe not exactly since i've got stuff on everyday. guess the worst was fri night, slept for only 1.5 hrs! haha.. my best record was 45mins,
but that left me fainting at home the next day ^_^
so: nv discount rest!

well, gonnie entertained me for a while.. such a zhu tou la.. "happy belated 26th bdae!" that's sound old... haha! alright hope he find a job soon, 26 already!! then can get married le.. remember to invite me! *take ur time la* (:

this weeks of rushing proj, not only feeling tired, but i also experience the grace of God and His faithfulness! i know He is where i draw my strength from. it is so wonderful to see God @ work when we are stucked. and of cos, thankews to the ones who prayed for me! (: much appreciated *from bottom of my heart*

"Hallew"....

here to update on our department outing yesterday - Mount Faber Safra Club...
the first thing that caught my eye upon reaching was the swimming pool...! not the normal size, but is definitely nicer than tampines safra... (: a beautiful club..

the first game.. alright i am bad at the first game, i need warming up! (:

anyway...

Back: Sing Yee, Sheena (BOSS!), Kelly, Shuting (my sup), ME

Front: Aina

extreme right-Celece
she is a funny woman... nv fails to make me laugh at her!

this is what it meant by 170cm - 161cm... ^_^
not accurate, think she nv stand straight la..

finally it was over... (:

my target was >100, i achieved it in my 2nd and 3rd game! (:

after bowling, head back to project...

i seriously dislike the forecasts and all... capital budget, sales forecast, P&L, balance sheet, production forecast... oh no... *praying each time be4 i begin* (:

enough of complaining..

thank God for fri off!

& thank bryan for sending the notes up to my house.. truly appreciated that! (: