am soo happy today!

the day started well.. guess a big part goes to my early night rest yest (: 11pm!
(dad & mom were shocked when i said goodnight)

mom made my fav breakfast for the longest time... though is only french toast, but i simply love it..

these 2 is enough for me to remain smiley.

i was asked if i am feeling stress with stuff ongoing, do i feel like God is distant, and do i feel tired of growing up...

if given a choice, of cos i will wish that time can turn back to when i was still a child, with only homework that bother me. as we grow, we mature and responsibility gets bigger.. thus i will always tell children dont rush in growing, before u wish u were still a child. (:

but i dont grow alone! at least friends ard me grow old tog with me! haha...
there are time we can share woes and time we can simply laugh tog... to me, that's what makes my growing process more meaningful..

feeling rather lousy today.. wanted to call someone to ratter and whine... and didnt understand what ODB is telling me...
i dunch like this feeling, been praying..thank God it didnt last for long, felt better after i left.

finally let out what i have been laying inside...
it was painful, but i felt relieved (:
thank God for you, cant find anyone else that i can relate... so no choice!

went for aud's farewell on sun, saw familiar faces. it warmth my heart to see them.
spent some time sharing, the feeling is different.

felt that this post a little emo... okie till there only...

ah wen gonna lead worship for 2 sats, and she seek me to help her.. well been a while since i touch the guitar, e last was when i gave lesson to the girls?!?! haha...
hope i still remember... anyway got myself help to standby, dun laugh at me, i do admit i dunch play well haha.. but is nice to team up with her, nv tried before. so far the best i worked with is elisa (our impromptu and rehearsals over phone), other than those in church of cos.

okie, am looking forward to that for now... oh and the retreat! a nice get away from work... though still a long long long way...

i had a thought of changing my line... to do something i always want to be - that is to be a teacher. but i am not certain...

it reminded me of my applications after 'A'level, which i was given chinese to teach *faints*
i always wanted to teach maths, but i guess cos of the flop i have done to my further mathematics in 'A' that blew it off! ha! guess much credits goes to mechanics for this.

sis said it might be the path for me.. teaching can be exciting. esther shared sec is difficult since students are getting more and more different & harder to manage, but i guess that's where the challenge is, aint it? (:

not sure if this is what i want or God want me to.. prior to this, i had thought my path will be set for the coming at least 5yrs, that is to get my cpa soon and continue in the accounting line or to go into audit. guess the chat with esther arouse my passion for teaching, which is one reason why i continue to tutor so as to practice my skills/knowledge since after 'o'.

guess this can be a passing thought of mine, i may end up doing the same mundane stuff.. haa.. shall see how it will lead me..

felt bad that i have left you out of my mind for a long while. oops...
(to the extend you thought i changed my mobile no...) oh no.. i really feel bad...
should have ask how you have been doing...
okie am really sorry abt it...

yeah as i was reading through the old blog, missed ya so much!! (:
nearly spent everyday tog - that's becos i am not schling..
really thank the Lord for you - for sharing a portion of my life and it shall cont to be k!
thanks for bringing so much into my life. (:
through the ups and downs, it is just a process of growing and understanding each other more.

looking back at my old blog brings back lots of memories...
realised i posted a lot of prayers and sermons/sharing that i have learnt.
as i read, it inspired me... managed to change the template so it is not corrupted like what raq told me before.. and i haven seen her for a while...

why has this new blog became a self centered one? i remembered i started blogging so as to spread the love and to allow others to know the Big Daddy (my Lao Pa) i have...

okie, why am i remincising all a sudden... haa... maybe cos i started reading abt me in the old blog. the faith didnt change i am sure! (:

missed the good old time....

didnt notice that i have been saying 'sorry' most of the time. i came across someone telling me that should cultivate the habit of saying 'sorry' and this had become so...

i haven been thank-ed by ppl for so long JUST as well....

and you have been thanking me! i haven done much really.. i thank God for you as well, for being able to read my mind rather well (which can be scary), for the things you have taught/shared with me (for unpaid suppers, for ur nonsense, for ur lame stuff, for the only thing u will remind me - my 'mission' etc) haha... (it takes muscles to give u a diao face btw) if u asked me few years back, guess i wont even imagine talking so much to you.

hanging ard with cousin these past days, i dunno if what i have shared is right but it is what i will do. guess is just my character, might not be what God wants to teach u.. i have reservations when i tell ppl what they should do, i do not wish to claim the credits when thing goes right, neither do i want to be blame for the wrong suggestions i guess (not that you will).. (:

anyway all much for the day.. bedtime... 207am...

-for elisa-
thanks so much for the wonderful birthday card. oh man! when i saw it i nearly teared la!
cant imagine you actually wrote those chinese words... no wonder you said i will be touched.
i guessed pretty much that you got someone to translate for you though. but so sweet of ya.

indeed, i thank the Lord for a friend like you. we have been through so much in the past 10yrs! (:
guess we wasnt even this close when we were in sec sch... all started after we moved on to JCs! how amazing it is, thanks for walking with me through the past yrs, listening to me, letting me whine and making me smile when i was down (: of cos, thanks for the long dist call when i needed someone. true enough, despite the dist, we were still as close. that's a blessing.

please come back soon, and i will promise suppers and movies with you.
(btw, i have not eat the ice-cream treat that you are giving me, got budget? lest i over spend and u refuse to let me claim) haha... anyway thanks for the thot, it warmed the heart, of cos i wont claim.

-for teo-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
thanks teo for being ard and always making me laugh (at u!), and thanks for the many late night calls we have (: haa!
(i am good at my 'phone ministry', and u are like the most freq member)

alright, work has been rather hectic the past days... finally closed my accounts...
and sch just started for me.... not a bad sem for there are only 2 modules.
so much for now... tired... (: