i rem how jac got mad at me when i made changes to the plans we have.
and i guess i know how jac felt..
now...
each plan made, i am excited.. even packing my bag and getting my clothes ready the night be4.. sound like a little girl? i am that excited, yes i am! i do understand things have to change, due to unforeseen circumstances, but i dun mean this. guess i feel that because is an expectation of mine. sorry for being so selfish and not considering u, ur stand, ur ability..

i may have repeated it afew times, abt ur changing ideas, changing plans..i know u want to please me, as much as i will want to please u too..i may have forgotten what was said and done exactly, but guess, i rem how i felt..this reminded me of the seminar i attended by Dr Huang, invited by FOTF.

always thot was being nice & thoughtful.. nv had such a hurtful convo.. uncontrollable still...i never meant it to be any hurtful. take it am insensitive... yest was like this, today too..

am looking forward to tml, been on my lips for a week long... and so excited i was...already had plans in mind what gonna take place till the time comes..now the feeling is so different...

really hope will feel better after a sleep... i dun like this seriousy.. hurt
but i cant calm down even after i blogged
wad abt tml? if u dun begin, i wont feel any better.. anyway guess u wont read this..