felt kinda funny.
haha, i think i should really get a change of environment. i do believe in the importance of around ppl who are on fire for God. here makes my spirit down. :( felt myself always defending and being criticised at.. boo! (though i know they may not know what i mean) still i love them, a loving bunch, will be able to progress IF i am a non-christian. but to drop my faith for this kinda friendship, no thanks! (:

oopss, being on this pms mood! haha... emoing.. so not me, dunno where did i learn this emo-ism from. hur. (:

work been alright, kinda looking forward to a change environment, yet a sentimental me, is resistance to change. haha, what a contradiction la.

went to lawrence's ahma's place last night. haa, quite an insight to see another family gathering, is kinda different from mine, guess cos mine is a bigger family bah. and is always very noisy due to the clusters of aunties grp, uncles cum some aunties grp, adult cousins grp, younger cousins grp, and the forever loud TV. (: that's my family. another i found abt myself is i dun fancy vegetarian food. but if there is, i guess i will just opt for the real vege (: haha, i think the curry vege was nice.. (: and ah ma is cute, just like mine too! ah ha.. mine can nag at the same thing over an interval of 1 min max! fantastic! (:

(i also wanna go on hols!! will u bring me? :P)

hai feeling so upset.. why?
i am afraid to think further, yet there is always one solution to end it all together..

anyway, happy birthday Jac! (:
guess haven been really spending time with u too, so sorry that today cant meet u as well!
well, we are meeting next tue though! (:

CNY is coming, and i haven gotten anything done yet.. which is kinda bad though.
i need to pack my stuff, and i need to get new stuff!
hopefully can make a trip down PPC, to breath in a little of the cny breath!

nothing much to update, tml the 1st session of Spiritual Badgework! needs prayer on that.. (:

deep down, i still miss u though... hai... what a weekend..

Happy NEW YEAR! haha.. a little late but well... (:

am unhappy today!!!!!! sian...

why do you give birth when u know that the children that you give birth to will curse ur life?
why do u even want to go to a fortune teller to know if this child will bless u, if not, u gonna abort?

hai... i find myself wanting to give an answer but yet i cannot convince. so upset with myself and i have to rant here.

heard abt the life story of a girl who was 'abandoned' because she is a curse to the family business. then to the parents, why do u still want to give birth? makes the girl felt so unloved. it sound like a typical drama but yet it is so real. i think i was upset and frustrate a little. this story is so sad, makes me want to cry.

on the other hand, i felt thankful for my family.
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in the new year, guess this year will be a busy year, perhaps exciting too! with the transitions i have... (:

The Lord has been good too! pray that He will continue to guide me.. (: