Spice Girls

"Viva Forever"

Do you still remember
How we used to be
Feeling together, believe in whatever
My love has said to me
Both of us were dreamers
Young love in the sun
Felt like my saviour, my spirit I gave ya
We'd only just begun

Hasta Manana,
Always be mine

[Chorus:]
Viva forever, I'll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live forever,
For the moment
Ever searching for the one

Yes I still remember,
Every whispered word
The touch of your skin, giving life from within
Like a love song that I'd heard
Slipping through our fingers,
Like the sands of time
Promises made, every memory saved
Has reflections in my mind

Back where I belong now,
Was it just a dream
Feelings unfold, they will never be sold
And the secret's safe with me

Merry Christmas!

Ho Ho Ho Merry Christmas! (:

This time of the year for me is usually the same every year! Christmas eve service, out with friends and home late. After which will be another family gathering either before christmas or on Christmas day itself. (: i nv get bored of doing this.. afterall my life is filled with family and friends. Next year, there will be an addition, haa.. i reminded aunt next year she needs to prep an additional Christmas present! (: i cannot wait for 2013 to come, it is like a new year, a new beginning, of cos with the addition of the little one, things will be different. No matter what, i will always be loving her...

This year brought dad and mom to service, well i hope to bring them more frequent if possible. (: am thankful that they came, the last visit was perhaps on my wedding.

This is also the time of the year whereby usually wen-wei will ask us to do our reflections. realised i didnt ask the girls to do :P as for me, i dont wish to write about this year, i didnt like this year. maybe because of this, i didnt suggest to the girls to write abt it. This year is a year where i prep myself for the next stage of life, it is also a year whereby i was hit to the bottom of my life, nv was i felt so betrayed and unwanted. i thank God for his reminders to me each time i indulged in self-pity. Is a journey i chose, i will stay by it and to honour God. Through this, i have felt stronger be it in faith or towards the future. I know the responsibility i have ahead of me and the role i have to play. God, please continue to guide me and show me the path.

i actually miss the dating days, always thought i am kinda like a dinosaur to date only after uni. i 'dated' once in JC, however also because of it that i flopped. Maybe, maybe, i should have dated longer...

Care but not love

I think that is what I am feeling... am i too emotional or sensitive? I can feel the difference from before. Will I become like this too? Care but not love? no affirmation; and  sometimes I wonder is it worth me doing it. But I know God wanted me to. I just know. It needed 2 hands to clap...

Kaleo camp ended! Well... this year lesser helpers, also due to some events that clashed which made bun a little more worried than usual. I did much lesser this year, not staying in and helped in 1 worship session. However, I was able to spend time talking to the girls more this year. Well, last night @ camp and usually more emotions this day. Girls cried but not because of touched by spirit but due to many various reasons.

The father came but received different reactions, i can see he didnt feel good either, well he should have predicted. But i am not qualify to judge him, am sinner too. I know she will be affected and true enough she walked away when she saw him. I didn’t see them talked at all. I heard in the bus, no exchange of eye contact and not a word came out from her mouth. I dunno how I should be helping her. To forgive and move on? I understand the hurt she is going through. Seeing her made me feel sad, I know what will happen if we were to have a heart to heart talk, I will cry with her. Looking back, I shared with him, I didn’t want it to happen to us. I dunno what the future hold because I dunno if u will promise to stay away, to be accountable. But each time I asked, the answer is dunno. Dunno sound insecure, if u know is wrong, u will keep ur heart away isn’t it? I also dunno how long I can sustain with so much uncertainty. I trust each day to the Lord, but is this going to be an everyday submission to Him? My fear: Future.

*Abigail kicked again*

How different will this Christmas be? I also dunno... think will be different... duh! -.-

But all I want for Christmas is that he can experience Him again, and to be able to attend the service.