Unappreciated

Yea this is what I feel.. 

Since u didn't want to talk abt it and I don't think you will get it. Neither do I want to start another phone war.. I was very defensive because I want to protect myself. It is coming to a month, but I didn't hear u said anything encouraging to me. It was always, "what new stuff is Abby trying?" "You should start a routine" "this routine is not working" "you should this this this and that that that" "Adrian's bb can do this" "Adrian'wife is doing this and that" it felt like all the things I am doing is not right. Is like at work, I don't receive praises for doing a job well done. Or i don't get any encouragement for making progress. Thus it made me feel lazy to even want to try anything, might as well just wait and let u nag. 

U are making comparison and indirectly putting pressure on me. Did u know? No doubt, u didn't scold me when Abby fell. I think if u did it be much more worst, esp the aftermath I had to face when ppl starts to ask what happened. 

I really dunno what it means to be a good mom or even a wife that u expected. I already tried my best, to accommodate, to compliment. Don't start a phone war with me if u read this. Not happy with it or felt unjust, nvm leave it. I be fine after a sleep. 

Tired. Sleep. 12 12 already.. 

Cannot get to sleep..

Is late but I can't get to sleep. 

Feeling hungry and some feeling within me that I dunno how to put it to words. 

I dunno if I had said the wrong things to someone in depression. >.< haven heard a reply, so just hope she is doing okie. Didn't know her for very long, but she was willing to share with me, interesting. 

Maybe she is causing me to lose sleep too, kinda worried for her.. 

Hungry..... Sleep..... 

Whenever I m unwell I like to put on my super oversized pullover since JC times. I felt it reminds me of daddy when I wear it because dad put it on before and qns me why do I buy such a big one! :D

1 week past Abby's fall :( thank God for protecting... 

Stop the clock (Peter Marsh)

Try to stop the clock from turning

Everyday we keep on learning

There's a better way for us to live

We are young and open hearted

We can't stop the change has started

Make the world a better place to live

Even though the time is on our side

There is a no place where we can hide

We know that there is just one way

Stop the clock and think about it

We are young and we can shout it loud

So everyone can see

Stop the clock and think about it

We are young and we can shout it loud

Make the world a better place to live

Stop the clock and think about it

We are young and we can shout it loud

So everyone can see

Stop the clock and think about it

We are young and we can shout it loud

Make the world a better place to live

A better place for you and me