Since u didn't want to talk abt it and I don't think you will get it. Neither do I want to start another phone war.. I was very defensive because I want to protect myself. It is coming to a month, but I didn't hear u said anything encouraging to me. It was always, "what new stuff is Abby trying?" "You should start a routine" "this routine is not working" "you should this this this and that that that" "Adrian's bb can do this" "Adrian'wife is doing this and that" it felt like all the things I am doing is not right. Is like at work, I don't receive praises for doing a job well done. Or i don't get any encouragement for making progress. Thus it made me feel lazy to even want to try anything, might as well just wait and let u nag.
U are making comparison and indirectly putting pressure on me. Did u know? No doubt, u didn't scold me when Abby fell. I think if u did it be much more worst, esp the aftermath I had to face when ppl starts to ask what happened.
I really dunno what it means to be a good mom or even a wife that u expected. I already tried my best, to accommodate, to compliment. Don't start a phone war with me if u read this. Not happy with it or felt unjust, nvm leave it. I be fine after a sleep.
Tired. Sleep. 12 12 already..
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