This Day...

I am so excited for hui... the anxiousness within her is something I can resonate as I recall the eve of the day. I had only 4 hrs of sleep and at this time I guess I was in bed eyes wide opened! :) I also rem we broke the whatever tradition of not seeing each other the night before when I realised the bouquet is at my hse so bro drove me down..
did u rem what was your feeling then?

Back to hui, am glad this time round it is happening. :) this yr I get to see 2 very close friends settling down.. am happy they found the one who they are growing old with. :) isn't it sweet to see ppl coming tog forming family and growing old tog? Am sure they will too.. :)

Haa... Raq texted today, other than my sis and mag, perhaps she is the next who is so excited over my unborn child.. she was telling me how blessed she think I am, to be able to start a family and she yearns to! Wow, she is only 23!!! Haa but is good to start young as per some says since healthier.. I somehow felt maybe she came a little early but is okie God will bring me through whatever that is to come.. :)

An opportunity came for me to ask how he is doing.. felt I needed to know and wanted him to know how I feel... otherwise sometimes I dunno how I should be treating him? As I said I do my part, my part means to show love and I think my love language is also touch. I dunno if I should even be giving a simple hug/kiss, will it be shan away or love be felt? I didnt want to do something when the love is not there.. it made me feel unwanted.. Am glad he shared he felt bad, because he is not what I used to think he was 3 months ago. I really hope he can come before God himself, not sth we can help or know if he had but sth only he knows for it is what he tells God..

Father, please don't pass him by... Work is still hectic for him... I don't rem him working so hard during dating time, there's always time for supper.. well, change of environment and expectation..
sometimes I worry what if he can't be there when I am in labour because he chose work over me? I think I will really be sad if there is any risk for me and he is not there..

Okie, bed time soon... looking at our wedding pic hung on e wall... we were really happy when we looked into each other's eyes that day..