HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!

received an sms from Judith to ask if i will drop by annual camp tonight..
she gonna leave for NZ tml...
so nice for her to text me.. for a long while she hasnt called me drums partner... (:

kinda rush, wanted to be home to see how ahma is also...
but decided i should meet her for a while...
....all the way in camp @ changi village.... *faint* hahaha..

ahma is kinda okie for now... thanks all for praying.. am really thankful for that..
last night, jumped out of my bed at 3.48am, after hearing a big 'thug' sound...
thankfully it wasnt ahma, but a container dropped.. guess didnt sleep well throughout, for even a thug like this i can jump out of the bed immediately... hai.. really feeling the stress... *sob sob*

wishing mom and dad are back soon!!
mom called and said she wanna extend for another 2 more days!! (she's joking)
i nearly cried!!! haaa... missed them sooo much! finally out of the mountains they are and will call me tonight! (: *big GRIN*

@ work today kinda slack...
Ivy suggested dedicating songs by searching for MVs online.. and she skipped my song!
*hurmp*
SY just laughed at me.... *diao*

grandma is sick again...

the fear that i have this afternoon stayed vividly as i recalled...
ain't sure why, this is the 2nd time ahma fell ill without mom & dad..
the 1st i had to send her in to hospital in an ambulance... think my parent were at a wedding dinner.. now they were away... really felt helpless and fearful.. called up the aunts and uncles..

it is frustrating initially to hear reasons such as i have got work or i am going for an interview.. maybe i have exaggerated but i think if it is me, the first thing is to drop everything. was hoping sis is able to take urgent leave since is easier for her to apply, but after the call from uncle, i called boss up and went off.

thank God that there were adults with me (not that i am not 1), but i guess when it comes to decision, i really do feel small... and the relief i felt when i see my uncle, i truely understood why guys are the head at home... fwah, for once my uncle impressed me...

yeah kinda feel bad dinner was cancelled indirectly because of this.
(but yeah felt better after hearing what you said, is nice to have support when you needed one, and thanks for offering to me help too)
after the whole incident made me lose the appetite and mood..
but am thankful to God for the things He had done... (:

was driving home one day, cant remember when.. and the car was playing this song by MLTR.. i cant seem to understand the lyrics till i have seen it.. a sweet one.. haa! guess cos sis been playing oldies in the car... so happened to hear this...

After some time I've finally made up my mind
She is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I'm searching everywhere to find her again
To tell her I love her
And I'm sorry about the things I've done

I find her standing in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she's crying while she's saying this

Chorus:
Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry you are
Twenty five minutes too late

Against the wind I'm going home again
Wishing be back to the time when we were more than Friends
Still I see her in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she's cried while she's saying this

Chorus

Out in the streets
Places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
Inside my head
Still I can hear the words she said
I can still hear what she said

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my parent are on honeymoon! (: missed them.... really... house was noisy with all the naggings and often screamings... haa!

realised haven done much, guess also because we are more independent now.. only thing is to settle grandma.. haa.. talking abt her.. so cute.. she's hard of hearing but she aint want to wear the hearing aid, so..... we had to talk super duper loudly which i am worried we may be sued for abusing elderly! haa! (mom suggested)

haha, finally this morning i started the washing machine! ahma had been nagging at me to wash, but realised it was only 1/4 full, so didnt want to waste water, but her concern is the piling of clothes.. hmm, well didnt want to upset her or seem like going against her, i started the washing in the morning.. kinda funny, it should be done at night so it can be hung first thing in the morning.. but well.. didnt want to have nightmare over it... (: ahma is really cute la...

beelan shared abt her fear of the illnesses that come with age etc, like senile.. it strucked me, what if i am like that too in the future??? like cataract, hard of hearing??? so i put myself in ahma's shoes.. so lonely and sad!! okie, i really do think ahma is lonely.. for grandpa passed away for almost 24 yrs! (and dad often said grandpa is a nice nice nice man... haa! just like how i think my dad is i guess)

was telling jy(she been bugging me to cook!) since dunch need to attend vbc today, thought of cooking simple dinner.. though i dunch have much experience.. guess really simple one will do?!? like pasta?? hai.. finally know how difficult mom goes through everyday le! even ta bao also dunno wad to eat, wad abt cooking?? haa, but 1 good thing is i wont get nag for a messy kitchen! wahahah..
but so much to do today! wanna wash car, help dad to start up his engine, clear up my room...

so much abt the messy-ness of my life after my parent went away..
am doing a psalm each morning, but still weekend's Ot is bad..
am really encouraged by each psalm everyday and reading of deu is interesting too, maybe because it is familiar to me.. (:
yest sharing of testimonies and praying for the various outreach that is upcoming warmth my heart. my heart was touched by the Lord, am thankful for that.. (:

praying for perseverance in my psalm each day...
praying for perseverance in bugging jy abt the bs grp! (:

had a swollen eye again!
woke up in the morning... and had a heavy eye lid..

doc adviced me from wearing contact lens for 2 weeks.. (oh man, 2 weekksss!)
and adviced me against wearing them often... (okie, i was wearing it everyday!)
she gave me eye drop... (it caused a bitterness in the throat thereafter, yucks!)
she gave me ointment... (dunno how to apply underlid...)
but no mc... (boo!)

but she's a nice doc, rather chatty and fun-loving...
guess shall wait till the end of day to remove my lens...

chinee set up a new blog http://www.pinkgingerbynee.blogspot.com/
so if u are interested in having somee bake cookies or cakes, do take a look k.. (:
(haa, jieying wants a cheesecake bake from me! eh... u gonna wait, but if it is nice, dun beg me for more!!! (: )

15 more days and butt will be back! (:

dad should have pick me from suntec.... then i wont end up spending again... but i do love e dress, so i guess is fine, he assured me when i called to complain that since is what i like is worth it, haha but quick to react when i offered him to sponsor me! (: rather agile..

today had a long chat with jieying... haha.. am really happy. pretty much thanks to her having nothing to do and mine not so busy week... so end up we chatted for the entire day, haha so much for her honesty and i guess mine too heh... (:
(u are really interesting, and i guess i do learn from you as well.. thanks for sharing with me too! and also listening to me)

recently, i faced a struggle that been facing for a while, and is still lingering...
i dun really like e word expectation, yet i cant find a better word.
think can summarise as the expectation of others?!? -dunch know-
but have been thinking how irony it is if i were to complain and yet the very thing i complain abt is my weakness too... sigh, needed enlightenment...

something for me to look forward to: CHRISTMAS!!
always love the lightings... and the season of giving...
suntec is up for decoration.. shall tour down orchard to see the lightings when is up..
remembered how in the past when we dun own a car, dad(a relief taxi driver) took us in his cab past midnight down orchard road, so niceee.... haha...

and i am still looking forward to a day spend doing etwg... (:
mornings has been great reading a psalm and deu.. hopefully this continues...

that's all i guess....

attended Su-Lynn's wedding today...
it was a nice wedding! (:
*so sweet*

closest friends of theirs ard me were tearing and shouting with joy.. (:

i liken the exchange of vows which was really sweet, and when i turned Yeeling was already tearing.. (: it was really sweet..

yup do agree with the exhortation by pastor vincent that true love begins from God. it is also important to have it rooted deep in God.

it is a different style from ms lum that i attended... but both has their special moments.. (:

oh..... and i have not done my psalms prayer this morning... realised weekend QTs are not as consistent as weekdays..... :(

better get it done before i sleep...

tired but dont feel like sleeping... aint sure why as well...

hmm been thinking abt my future... haven thought of what am i gonna do abt it..
change is constant. for sure things will be different in some aspects.
shall leave it when it happen to think, esp so when i dont have an answer for it.
pray!
so far, God has been answering my prayers (i think)... am thankful for that.... (:

decided to turn in and try to sleep... eyes are sooo dry!

Centipedes/ANts attack!

early in the morning, found a CENTIPEDE on my table! right..... it came out while i was using the paid chop. The thought of it irks me! hair standing, frowning face, and now a cleaner table.

yucks! yucks!

having ants appearing back again these few days is bad, to make it worst - the appearance of a centipede.. what a reunion... haha (:

eeeee.........

okays.... enough!

received this video and the dog is sooo cute!! (: though i can feel its sadness...