Does love change so fast?
I read through my entries and felt things changed.
Honestly, I didn't feel good Abt this morning because hope was given but usually it is deflated. This is also not once. U asked if I want, I didn't want to make u feel made used, like i needed u. I rather it be Sth u want to do for me. 想:现在的你和以前不一样.
I think I had such a strong feel because I try very best to fulfil the things I promised. You didnt like me to break promise made to you, but I see you breaking mine. Maybe to you, u didn't promise. But u also know I didn't like plans to be changed. In fact, I knew this morning this will be expected. I thought maybe this period I will feel alittle love from u, but as I walk out on my own, as I carry my heavy bag, my heart was heavier. I felt unwanted and unloved.
I know he is tired, physically, mentally, maybe emotionally too. Perhaps I am asking too much.
I see preg ladies on the road, most often with the hubby along side, holding them. Honestly, I felt this preg, I am all alone. I didn't feel love. I felt upset that things changed. I didn't like this stage of my life.. I feel like just running away... I puke ytd, I needed a hug, from who?
This is a place I just want to rant how I feel.. Maybe these 2 days is a good break for us..
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