i am glad! there is this excitement within me.. haa!

Dedicated to Ms Kelly Ker!

yeah!! Kelly is getting married! (:
(shall announce it for her!)

so sweet of yk to plan it so well for her..
first he tricked her into knocking off on time, then bringing her to sentosa..
as it is still early, they decided to take a stroll at the beach (:
and yk bought her favourite anges b bag (sweet)
*most impt* there is a card in the bag which he drew (a boy and a girl)
and TADA!!! he proposed on 16th June 2008!

then it ends off with a nice meal...... (: Barnacles Restaurant

after which, they proceed to music fountain (so romantic!!!)
but...they met a smoker who caused air pollution.. oops.... (okie this is a spoiler)
then... it all end off with them going back to yk's hse @ simei...
(congrats yk and kk!)

-end of story-

i have volunteered nicely to be the wedding planner... together with the whole finance and HR team as well!
she should be touched!

prayed. never felt like this before.
felt better after praying..

i wonder if this is the one for me...
i think i cannot live up to the expectation, and eventually i will see more disappointed faces.
i cannot find the motivation..

and sch is starting next week... oh man, i wanna whine again...

guess i need a good break... need a nice ice cream!! (today is tue - well i always missed it)

ah wen came to meet me for lunch on fri!
so nice of her to travel down and had a good time catching up with her...
though knew abt certain news from her, but i believe it is all well in God's hand yeah... trust Him!

then had supper with cousin, law, mag and weilun..
went to a new HK cafe @ east coast... i think i will prefer siglap's... (:

it was a nice chat together, but poor lawrence is sick again... aiyo....
pls take good care of yourself and get well soon!!
praying for ya..

had a niceee cake from awefully chocolate today from drill comm.. so sweet (both the ppl and the cake), really love it. the very thought that they were ready to sing me a birthday song when i was @ church camp warmth my heart! only to find that i off my phone to preserve the battery. so sweet of u all... (:

*finally i saw su-lynn's video!!! oh man.... tat was hilarious....

wooo! just came back from church camp feeling refreshed!

guess no regrets for attending this camp, some take away for me...
i have nv knew how hurtful it can be to see ppl falling away from God when we have been journeying together, now i know. this reminded me of the 5 most beloved ppl that i have written on the card some time back, i thank the Lord for in it i wrote the names of 2 close frens of mine and 1 came back in the arms of God. (: i wouldnt wish to see frens ard me leaving the warm embrace of His, all i can do is to pray for them.

i also asked myself will i still be walking side by side with Him 10/20 years down the road?
no one can predicts... will i persevere? i really dunch know.. but one thing i know now is that He is still the Lordship of my life, of my heart. it also let me see church in a different light.. not negative but just a different perspective.

actually felt really bad during the camp.. felt so unprepared but yeah.. God has really been faithful...

had a wonderful birthday spent in camp (: thanks all for the cake and surprises... bet the whole level knew it was my birthday (: the cake was nice.. and the surprise really came as a surprise..
haha.. special abt this year's birthday lies in the cake! had 3 cakes this yr with 3 different candles on it. one had 25 (@ work), one had 24 (with JC classmates), yeah and had 20 for church camp, so average is 23.. whoa.. diaoz... but this 'mistakes' made this year's birthday special for me. will remember it! haha...

camp was really relaxing and a good thing to take me away from work for a while.. this awhile made me dun feel like going back to work anymore... sianz.. haha... (: but well life goes on but with a different energy to fight the battle (:

today boss not ard.. haa! hence morning was kinda lighthearted... and i was late for work for 7 mins without me realising..

anyway yesterday had a celebration for my bdae @ work, it started all wrongly from the beginning with 25 candles!!!! haa... received a nice bag and a really lovely card! i do love cards!! guess cos it is something personal and i enjoy reading every word written in it, aint them meaningful (i kept all my letters and cards btw)? so, i love cards! (elisa, are u sending me one from aus? must be made in aus!)

taken some pictures @ the balcony! oooo... the scenery is soo beautiful, but of cos it cannot beat the night view.. the night view is def nicer! the office was filled with so much laughters viewing the picutres, shall select only the nicest ones... thanks so much for that! I wont remember having 25 candles on my cake okie… haaa!


a pleasant surprise set up (:

did you spot the candles?!?

the finance team...

a really nice card & present received..

nice scenery!

alright, this looks like a scolding session..

Sheena: you know..... you all shouldnt..... this shouldnt be the way..

Jami: oh! orh.. i am so sorry

SY: huh.. orh... erm..

alright, lazy to blog more pictures cos i have to wait for a long time..... (:

anyway i thank God for a wonderful working environment i am in and i do certainly hope i can be a salt and light to Him here. (:

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updates on past weeks...

attended anna's wake on the last night. there were sharing of her lives. it came upon me that little things that we do can touch ppl's heart. i wonder if i have done enough little things as a form of outreach to christians and non christians alike.

also shared with cousin how i told my sis i wanted my funeral to be like. (: and maybe can paste those cards i received haa... i will like the walls to be filled with messages from friends!! (:

and my phone finally died on me... it is a mute phone now! i cant hear anything, is time to get a new one.. so no calls at the moment but i can sms.. (:

alright... back to work.... though boss is not ard.....

Sacrifice-Bob Fitts- With lyrics.

what great love that God had showered upon us.

received this from Isabelle this morning.. so sweet aint it?

haven seen her for a while since i left, what's more she only joined GB this year, anyway a nice girl (:

i dont have motivation towards my work... how? been taking my own sweet time in doing stuff i realised...........

i think because of my OT-ing... and i realised i haven seen my dad for 2 days! oops..

Exodus been telling me abt being used as a vessel of God - like how God used Moses & Aaron (Vessel of Fragrance, haha sound familiar, how about sitting down camp?), to make things happen through me. i thought before surely i can be one? though i have been praying for God to use me to fulfill His purpose. (:

i dunno what to update le......... boring.......

saw this pic on my comp, reminded me of the convenant that God made during Noah's time (Gen 9:12-17). it reminded me, too, of what law shared when rainbow appears, it could mean God needed that as a reminder, can you imagine how upset He could be with us?!?

anyway then saw this:

21 The LORD smelled the pleasing aroma and said in his heart: "Never again will I curse the ground because of man, even though [a] every inclination of his heart is evil from childhood. And never again will I destroy all living creatures, as I have done.

22 "As long as the earth endures,

seedtime and harvest,

cold and heat,

summer and winter,

day and night,

will never cease."

as long as the earth endures... will never cease-will it somehow link to the work of men, civilization? i have heard disasters came due to human work, global warming... i wonder...am i thinking too far cos of recent disasters?

i like this song... maybe it caught my attention because the way the singer sang it (haa)... haven really understood the meaning of the song though, but catchy tune i thought (:

不知道为了什么忧愁它围绕著我
我每天都在祈祷快赶走爱的寂寞

你要我听这一首歌用这首歌离开我
她唱的太美了歌词却很伤人
你为什么不直接提分手

爱人的话不需要重轻轻的说我就懂
接你的车来了表示爱到站了
我站在十字路口对抗心痛一个人

你的黑发现在睡进谁的胸口
你的唇现在跟谁要温柔
一开始你爱我最后你放弃我
还要用千言万语说得委屈你有多难过

爱牢牢抓紧我恨深深包围我
你要我为你好快赶走爱的寂寞

爱人的话不需要重轻轻的说我就懂
接你的车来了表示爱到站了
我站在十字路口对抗心痛一个人

你的黑发现在睡进谁的胸口
你的唇现在跟谁要温柔
一开始你爱我最后你放弃我
还要用千言万语说得委屈你有多难过

爱牢牢抓紧我恨深深包围我
你要我为你好快赶走爱的寂寞

爱牢牢抓紧我恨深深包围我
你要我为你好快赶走爱的寂寞

Pray 24-7...

indeed, i prayed like i never pray before.. this was my prayer each time before the prayer session. i prayed for a revival within me each time. all i can say is, thank God for journeying with me all my walk with Him, my every paths i chose, even when i made the wrong move, God will gently direct my path. who am i to deserve His attention, to deserve to be the chosen one, called His child?

indeed, this is a privilege. this is not a chance, it is a plan, a perfect plan of God.

when i was younger, i used to imagine that God owns a lot of book shelves that are used to display our 'portfolio' (though i am not sure if God is high tech to track using a computer instead), each book is named, by our name. i wanted God to be please when He is reading mine, i wanted Him to be proud that i have run a good race, fight a good fight for Him, and He is smiling when He look into my life.

many a times, i think i have made Him sad, what i feared most is when i do not even know that i have sinned and it is seemingly right to me. that's then scary.

recently, the world's attention falls on China and Myanmar, the 7.9 quarke and cyclone nargis caused many lives lost, and adding to the totality of broken families overnight. this is so sad, my heart goes out to them. i wondered how many believers are in the midst of those who lost their lives. many said this is a wake up call to the unbelievers and believers alike, i think it is also a time that i wonder what can i do. How God can use me? there are many who have yet to believe in Him, there are also many who have yet hear abt Him.

i hope i can do something... so sad to watch the documentary.

over the last week, church embarked on a 24-7 prayer week, went to church to pray on wed and fri nights. had an extended prayer session on sat night 2-6am, so worn out on sunday. but i really do felt that i really prayed like never before. since 2 am, we have been worshipping Him, lasted all the way till after abf. indeed personal revival (:

I AM SO DISTRACTED TODAY! haha... that's not very good...
distracted by what i do not know...

life is getting a little boring i think..although this week i am suppose to be pack with activities, but somehow i still think it is boring, why? sometimes i just dont wish to do anything but to watch ppl getting ard with their busy schedule while i enjoy a nice drink in a nice cafe.... (:
cousin is not meeting me for dinner, well that's because i will be seeing her coming fri to sun (her reason, haa).

cousin & lawrence, thanks for your concern last night! (: yeah i know ppl ard me cares (haa, my fav sentence)

a little abt things @ work since i am so free now...
i was advised to cut off ties with the previous colleagues i worked with, esp since a new person has taken over. i do understand her agony when ppl bypass her and speak to me, even for simple matters. i don't how. not me to simply say, please do not call me anymore for i am no longer handling your acc. ok, i think she is really disappointed and fuming yesterday. i will try not to interfere between them.

my colleague advised me on my weak point, being too trusting. she said i trust ppl easily, though i hardly know them. hmmm... is written on my face again? diao.... just been nice and giving others the benefit of doubt, is tiring to be defensive and observing ppl leh. anyway unless the first impression i have of you is bad, then guess that's too bad. haa!

aside to my walk with God...
alright embarked on Gen, still is. a little slack with bs, guess gonna do it tonight.. (:
pray for the disasters in Myanmmar and CHina. glad that sze & sam are fine.

okie my random thoughts above... am bored la...

i am tired... really... by all the qns and i dunno how to answer them anymore. i may chose to frustrate it instead. sorry if i vented it on you, i really think i did.

i was approached like last year regarding this and since then, many who knows me came to ask if i am going to take over. i think am tired of being in the lime light at times, esp when ppl ask "what's going to happen after she step down?? oh JAMI taking over is it? good good!"
when i qns "why me??" - "because only you and you are the best option" (i qns if this is from God?) somehow i don't really like the reply, it seems like a best way out, without considering my feelings and my thoughts.

many tried to talk me out into this, honestly i didnt want to pick it up because i will surely come to the same situation as of now some years later. and i do know myself, i do have my insecurities - i feel that i am not strong enough (emotionally though i may not show it). yes, friends said they will be there (and i am a team player, i do need support - physically there). i appreciated that. i do appreciate too when ppl have that faith and trust in me that i can do a good job or i can be a good leader. i do appreciate when ppl i hardly work with finds me a great person to work with. i give this glory to God for making who i am. but, is this the reason for ministry?

ministry to me is a commitment - at least 2 yrs. have i become a need to the company? outsiders see it as this. and i do appreciate ur 8 reasons to me, really... i am touched by ur sharing, love ya k, i nearly teared, yes! am really sorry, but thanks alot for the trust in me.

says:
hear me out
JAMI. says:
ok..
I cut off my pony tail says:
1. to me it must be in a hand of a resposible person.
2. The one must know it very well, cos it's a company which had been running for more that 10yrs
3. The one must know the current problem in it, so that changes can be make when she take over.
3b. This is the most important because i have been in it long enough to know that there are lots of changes to make it better.
4. The one must have a heart for it, not just take up because she wants to serve GOD, but out of LOVE for this company and wants to serve GOD through it. Not through it to serve GOD.
5. The one of the it must have very gd coummiuncation with sch, becos we all know that all the teachers that comes in dont last.
5b. to make teachers that comes in have a feeling like home and be devoted to our work, the one must be extrem humble to hear others point of view of
5c. this has been a major promble in my point of view, and i think this will cos great change inthe gals involvement too. See EC case, when she influnces us so much, guided us so much
6. The one must have gd relationship and commuication with church too. it now is lack of someone who can commuincate with church and the current one is not having a too gd relationship with current church now.
6b. Even though one is not from the church, she should still keep in close contact with church. I would not say that the current one is not doing that, cos i dont know. But i know that this will be a great challange for the future one.
6c. Even that a challange if the one is humble, GOD house will not stir up in it becos GOD is incharge and he will not allow this to happen.
6d. From what i know, church have no woman or full time staff who is capable of taking up this responsibilty.
7. The one of it must be able to see and plan a future this company, someone who can see what level should this company be brought to.
8. The one must be a gd accountant, to take care of the company spending and funds.

says:
from all the 8 pointes above ~ these are what i think a one of it should be
says:
some how ~ you have meet them
says:
i listed them for you not that i want you to take up
says:
but from a person who loves it and i know for sure i am not the one who will take over deep from the bottom of my heart
says:
that for sure
says:
so to me the one of it must be like this wheather izzit you or someone eles, for we know the situation better than anyone
says:
So i guess this is also y i ask you to take up the post, not because there is only you, but rather is only you who can do it.
says:
\Not everyone can do it, of cos there will be someone better than you who can do the job
says:
but to me you look like you are plan to do it, i see a growth in it in future when i think of it in the hands of yours
says:
becos you have the passion for these gals and you the most humble person i met whom i believe can stand btw the gap of sch and it
says:
it will also growth in yr hands becos you know what is best for her and you know what she is lack of and what she needs.
says:
like a mother
says:
i truly believe in this
says:
let GOD's will be done and not mine


*the above is an unedited version of the convo, i hesitated if i should post this or post and change blog! but well, to me nothing to hide, perhaps is just someone's point of view. i dont doubt my own leadership, some do know i dont have the confidence as well. yes, the solution is pray and ask God for strength, i do know not that i did not do it, but to me this is not the priority yet. i am glad with what i am doing right now, i think i need a break from there. this reminded me ru sent me an article and spent time with me to understand what a leader should be. honestly, i really do think i cant cos i am not a far sighted person, i just shared recently that even my own life plan is till before i turn 25... i dont even know if i can see that far in other areas.

ok, i think i seem vexed, a little by all the questions being asked when ppl sees me. i dunch know, let the last sentence, let God's plan be done. so can stop asking me? ask God?? (:

it has been a long time! (:

okie what should i say.....

work is hectic because it is month end.

school is over because i just finished my exam. yay!

went to watch Iron Man today with the usual ones. the movie was so so so nice....
despite being tired after knocking off at 10pm, i enjoyed the whole show.
(really sorry to make u guys wait for so long, sorry!)

2 more weeks to my only paper....
and i am way behind.. think i nv learnt my lesson, even though this time round i started the earliest among all my exams in SIM.

guess i have to make plans for overnight studies... (:
whole of next week gonna be on half day leave each day, really needed the discipline to start revising... hmmm thinking of place to park myself...
HK cafe is too far from work....

been trying to catch up on sleep, haha, but my efforts were to no avail..
last night was tired, but chatted with avril all the way till abt 4am!
it was a good time chatting with her... was so amazed by her! haha
thanks for accompanying me to enrolment too..

hmmm enrolment.....

How wide is Your love
That You would stretch Your arms
And go around the world
And why for me would a Savior's cry be heard

I don't know
Why You went where I was meant to go
I don't know
Why You love me so

Those were my nails
That was my crown
That pierced Your hands and Your brow

Those were my thorns
Those were my scorns
Those were my tears that fell down
And just as You said it would be
You did it all for meAnd after
You counted the cost
You took my shame, my blame
On my cross

How deep is Your grace
That you could see my need
And chose to take my place
And then for me, these words I'd hear You say

Father no
Forgive them for they know not what they do
I will go
Because I love them so

after You counted the cost You took my shame, my blame on my cross

-what a wonderful love-
i heard this on one of the night services in church. it was so beautiful.

elisa called today! yeah i was happy to hear ur voice.. (:
thanks for listening to me... yeah you can be praying for me on that..

for the others, well, just share in summary... haha
i have some areas of concerns in my heart, and the funny thing is i know what God wanted me to learn from it. haha got that inspiration as i shared with elisa. indeed, i should hold on to the faith that He will guide me even when i fear.

elisa asked me if after making those decisions, will i have time for myself? i wondered... haha
but if i reject, she will be a burden in my heart, if i accept, i fear for my inadequacy. if i reject, someone may come along the way to guide her, if i accept, can i hold her there and help her grow? aiyo.... decisions again.... hai...

maybe cos it speaks of commitment... am i committing too much? but i enjoy the process..

aside to tay, so nice of u to remember to update me abt ur date. (: hope my advise on ur planning helped.. no worries abt the rejection now, is not a failure anyway. shall see after exam, concentrate first! should give some room and concern during this period of preparation la... (: okie a step taken... (: -guess u said u wanna show me e photo, bluffing me again?- haha

i am so glad that sy decided to stay..
was so sad yest when i knew abt it, though i knew her for barely half a yr.
guess the friendship we had, made me felt so affected by it.
didnt expect the impact on me, but i guess like what boss said, the dept has really bonded well.
i thank God for this, esp since is my first job.
had an opportunity to finally answer her qns to me, didnt know how to explain to her when she asked what is my makes me carry on life/motivated each day (something along this line).
told her are friends, but i guess is people ba, so that i can show the love like Jesus do to me.
God create nice opportunity when we have patience to wait. (:

finally down with presentation!
thanks my fren for picking me from sch (:
appreciated that...

two more weeks to easter!
however, the death/resurrection of our Lord should be in our hearts everyday, every moment. for that holds a victory sign that Jesus had accomplished His mission for the uworthy.

Qt hasnt been good for some time, been doing a few days of reading in a day.
guess due to busyness...

Last week was bad...
had 3 nights of 530am and waking up at 730am...
and i was late for work for a day at least.
no doubt i can sleep late, but with work, guess i cannot anymore.
i always remembered daniel tan(sim lect) said before since we are young, sleep less, spend more time on earning $. ahaha... money is not earn this way, there are other more impt stuff to spend on - like God, family, friends!

last sat met e drill com, and my dear AI AI is getting married! (:
Jasmine! my prayers for you is that your relationship be God-honouring and God will bless you both. (:
she has been the closest one to me in drill com, guess cos we entered together, and still remembered how we got messed up as jami lee and jasmine tan! (: so nice to have you back seriously!

this week, celece is leaving and i will be on my own solely to do the sg acc. gosh!
but i know the Lord has been faithful, whenever fear creeps in, He will send peace and reminded me of Him. just hope that this month sales will be fine... - holding on close to HIM -

this month will be a testing month as i see it, a test of time management... dealing with work, sch, assignments, various activities... wow! but i guess will be over soon, since when we are busy, time pass fast..

been busy with the SBA test to actually update my blog..
thank God for the good paper on thurs, had a good time writing and God, had once again, shown His greatness to me by His peace upon my heart. (: this down, more to come in mar... another management report gonna due on this fri. hmmm guess should try to finish by thurs.. hmmm..

after my paper, went to NUS to give cousin a SURPRISE visit. i admit that i simply cannot play pranks on others, is proven, yes. (:

just thought of cousin that week so decided to visit her after my paper since i am nearby as well.
thank God that law joined in, and i was spared the 'supposed' taxi rides. (: and i really appreciated that. (:

the roads within NUS really driving us mad. been traveling the same roads up and down, guess ppl who have seen us passing by wondered too. and is not funny, gosh! so tiring. still thank God for a little amusement during the 'agony' haha!

guess we were paying so much attention to the road names, and we found this! - 'Law Ling'
haha, guess the first time law found a road named after him! -.-
(i alighted to take this pic btw)



















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met up with leaf, ying and zibin for lunch on sat. haha, had a long discussion on 'is it ok to lie to save a life', well... had some insight from zibin's sharing. shared abit with him also abt how i wish to undergo trials like some do at times, and guess what he said was true, in fact each day i may be battling with something, but perhaps due to conscience, i chose to do the right thing. well, i think it will boil down to remaining faithful in Him and to read His word so as to fall back on Him, who is my foundation.

met up with the 02s21 peeps at night.
didnt realised an easier route to jalan kayu from my hse till that day. alright, i am still learning anyway. (:

thanks to tay who helped me to get my way there, was so amazed by his details - 3nd (2nd or 3rd?) bus stop after turning into jalan kayu, and passing the home and shell on my right (which was actually left), walked 20 steps in the same direction and i will reached (it took me more than 60 steps and i was still a dist away) nonetheless, i still appreciate ur details. ^-^

is so nice to see the old classmates again.. though is the usual group, it brought back lots of fond memories of those time in tpjc. (: thanks to marvin for the ride back, despite his early church svr on sun. (:

and........ i was late for church on sun... :(
i woke up at 740am by a call, and headed back. i was so tired.
nearly fell asleep during sermon, but it was an interesting one though, and of cos the sudden ringing of my phone woke me too -.- haha...

i guess the topics covered/going to cover in church are getting more and more interesting to me. (; which is a good thing, makes me look forward to sermons on sundays.

Chimpanzee (Pan Kun) and Dog (James) team up for situps

posted this on my tpjc blog and terence was addicted to it! (: so decided to post here for my other friends to enjoy. (: rather hilarious, how smart these animals are.