i dunno what to title this...

I don’t know what to title this...


The last entry was Mar 2010, guess nobody will rem the existence of this blog, hence decided to reuse and pen down my thoughts.

I have yet to write/blog in a long while. Personally after this last entry, I switched to another combine blog to rem our wedding journey and ahead. However, it was stopped since motivation from one is tough to maintain. I browsed through my old entries, particularly the last one before I switched, I finally knew why the old hymm ministered to me and I wanted it to be included in my marriage worship, does he know?

When love is tried as loved ones change,

hold still to hope though all seems strange,

Till ease returns and love grows wise

through listening ears and opened eyes.

When love is torn and trust betrayed,

pray strength to love till torments fade,

Till lovers keep no score of wrong,

but hear through pain loves Easter song

I always felt that this song bears alot of meaning, it already tells me how difficult the journey of marriage can be. Maybe, I thought I will have a wonderful one. But I must say, I really do think I had a wonderful one until the trust was betrayed.

I felt so miserable. I really do. I know he is having a hard time too and most probably got whacked/will be by a lot of ppl. What hurts me is the truth. Is an irony that I want to hear yet I find myself biting my lips to hear? Women cant help but to compare, I don’t wish to. I felt I always wanted him to be by my side, not much expectation but just want to follow where he go and he be with me when I needed him.

This journey is so tough, the road to recovery is so hard.

God, please be near us.