Wall E....

though i watched this show sometime ago, but i really think is nice and cute...

this morning on my way to work.. didnt feel much better, but i spotted something from afar!
hahhaaaa.. i thought i saw wall e! (oh man, my colleagues laughed at me when i told them)

i saw an amplified version of it, something similar, a square body and it has 2 big eyes (okie, i guess are like those spot lights thingy)

haha, what a funny morning... (thought i was dreaming....)


Jesus You are You are
Everything I'm not
And everything that I want to be

Jesus You are You are
The maker of my heart
Finish what You started in me

This is the hope I have
It's something I cannot see
You willingly gave Your life
Willing to die for me
Now I believe
I believe I believe

i am rather upset... i think is with myself.. just want a space to vent it out.
i remembered someone told me before a phase that i will not forget... jie shi= yan shi
i guess it is true when it reaches a point.. that i am immune and i will be upset but i will not bother to explain.. slowly i think i am reaching there..

wanted to have swensens ice cream today, but since waiting time is 20 mins plus cousin gotta leave for tuition, we changed.
guess is the emotions that have yet to receive peace, the alternative to my ice cream is to splurge! okie, $100 poorer.... i wonder i will regret getting that dress... sian.... it always happen when i felt down and wanna splurge thus i always prefer ice cream.....
well... at least i had jap food...

finally assignment is out of my life for good! (maybe for a while, unless i chose not to further)
okie... wanna sleep soon... sleep over it..

i am still not good over it

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ELISA!
missed ya woman.. (:
cant wait... 2 mths right?!? (:

Can I Borrow $25?

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated,
to find his 5-yearold son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'
DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.
SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.
SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'
SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'
The father was furious,
'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.
The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions.

How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?
After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down ,
and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often.

The man went to the door ofthe little boy's room and opened the door. 'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.
'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.
'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man.
'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled.
Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.
The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.
The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.
'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.
'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness. It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent sometime with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love.
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what a heart warming story... *touched*
so a reminder to the hardworking friends i have - spend some time with ur love ones...
(yes, me too)

ooohh.. finally the photos are also done compiling... left for me to upload..
think wont upload much here, is too slow, dun wanna waste too much time waiting..
shall load on facebook then..

inspired to blog this by jieying:
so many came and asked if i have missed them... YES! i did miss many of u kay.. (unless u want me to personally tell u i did?) haha.. missed my bed, my mom, dad, silly siblings, grandma, my usual kakis, my usual hangout place (: (which i went last night!).... okie the list goes on...

am back to my normal lifestyle of late nights (oops) haha, slept so early in jap, as early as 930pm(sg time). it is indeed refreshing but guess much due to the travelling, get wore out easily too..
wanted to cont from numbers 15 last night, and found myself dozing off in front of my com! (oops, sorry abt it!) haha... today is pretty alright, no sign of dozing off @ work yet... (:

last night, also, had a sudden urge to shop.. went round from suntec city all the way to city hall (kinda boring, but well, was away 6 days), saw a dress that i really loved, $200. wah! *niceee*

anyway, adjusting back to work! hahaha... things getting a little boring.. well.. shall see how it goes from here.. shall load the photos separately (:

Finally... Home Sweet Home...

touched down at an irregular hrs making me awake right now, guess slept too much on the journey back that was filled with turbulence. so sweet of cousin to pick me from the airport *touched* am glad to see her... (: (guessed she missed me much, judging from the smses that she sent each day! hahaha!)

this Japan trip is rather different maybe because it is my first free and easy trip.
wow! and transportation in Japan is not cheap! that's where most of my money went to, and i am truely amazed by the many different 'MRT' lines they have. by walking to the train station and ard the places sent my legs aches. kinda painful journey.. (shall post more photos once i consolidate them)

Japan, i will describe as a country with passionate and well-manner ppl. Generally, on the train, will seldom see them speaking too loudly or playing loud music. the ppl are also passionate about their jobs, i see this more often being displayed in Disneyland, on the streets are mainly ppl shouting the same slogan (wonder why dont they record it down??). Japan also has alot of smokers, but one thing good is they get rid of the ashes in bins or self-prep containers. their restaurants are also mostly segregated with smoking & non-smoking area, well, of not much help cos it still STINK my hair! (:

Food in Japan is niceeeee... since i loved Jap food.. but sushi is super ex...
had ramen most of the time, tried the curry rice and also some other jap cuisine, guess the Jap outlet in SG can still make it (:

walking along the streets, i see alot of arcades. it is always packed with ppl playing games, esp pin balls (i think that's the name), with baskets of small metal balls. and the ppl start to watch movie as early as the cinema opens! (that's sooo early!), whereas here, we watch as late as we can.

this trip opened my eyes to the culture of Japan.. realised too that the children are so so so cute (: no wonder, the grew up are rather good looking..

i had an opportunity to take this period to spend more time with the Lord as well. manage to type down my QT each day and am reading till NUMBERS 13! (: enjoying each moment of it, it is such a wonderful feeling... am glad i had the bible with me.. (though i carry it everywhere i go)

okie, more photos hopefully soon...... (:

thanks for the concerns that many have shown... thank God for each one of you. (:
haha indeed is rare i am like this, in fact, it is the first time that i am so affected i guess...
but God is good all the time, and all the time God is good!

QT a few days ago as i shared was on putting my life with Christ being the focus so that my life will be in focus. indeed, this guards most of the things that i am doing. i am human afterall that will fail man and God. it is by the grace of God that i am wash clean once again. this really taught me to go back to basic, on my walk with the Lord. i thank God for allowing me to experience His grace and to know that He is journeying with me. another QT was on roots or shoots, i wanna be one deeply rooted in the word, to be the roots (:

the conviction that God place in my heart is greater than mere men. read 2 cor 1 just now, i think the passage is rather apt for my thoughts... i find more comfort in the fact that God will shower us with His comfort in time of troubles.

this morning as i was on the way to work, was listening to songs and trying to hear and meditate on the lyrics.. i really like this song and indeed God is God, sometimes we can only see a part of the picture that He is painting, we are mere man...

wo men shi ren, bu shi shen (:

anyway... the song of the day..

GOD IS GOD

And the pain falls like a curtain
On the things I once called certain
And I have to say the words I fear the most
I just don’t know

And the questions without answers
Come and paralyze the dancer
So I stand here on the stage afraid to move
Afraid to fall, oh, but fall I must
On this truth that my life has been formed from the dust

God is God and I am not
I can only see a part of the picture He’s painting
God is God and I am man
So I’ll never understand it all
For only God is God

And the sky begins to thunder
And I’m filled with awe and wonder
‘Til the only burning question that remains
Is who am I

Can I form a single mountain
Take the stars in hand and count them
Can I even take a breath without God giving it to me
He is first and last before all that has been
Beyond all that will pass

Oh, how great are the riches of His wisdom and knowledge
How unsearchable for to Him and through
Him and from Him are all things

So let us worship before the throne
Of the One who is worthy of worship alone

sorry to vent it on you over the same issues again. it is too much for me to bear. it really stumbles me and i do not know if i know Him.that feeling is so scary, my first time encountering it,crying it out doesn't bring me comfort.

now i do not know how to carry on. i leave it to Him in total control of it. prayed and i felt peace.
i just needed to blog it out. so it will remind me and to see the grace of God.

i want to run away from it (rather can i stop running), but i can imagine no matter how far or fast i run, ppl catch up and i will find myself in the same pit again. i nv felt this before. it is this time that i truely know i need Him.

i hope i am doing fine. and will be fine. at the end of it, i hope to hear Him say, "Well done, my faithful servant".

i dunch wanna talk abt this anymore....
dun ask me too....
guess i just want a good sleep later...

was reminded about 'running a good race' for Him. trials are there to mold us, so that we can be trained to be more Christ-like. my life, my race, is it good? a Christian life is really hard, but i really dunno what will happen to me if i hadn't know Him.and precisely because of this, hanging out with Christians already form a big part of my life than non-christians, it is also where i feel more comfortable.

a call that given me assurance, lest leaving me to think what exactly happened.
instead of me worrying, guess it encouraged me instead.

i realised i needed to rely on Him for this, things are not within my control and i do feel it as a failure. it brings me back to why did i even agree in the beginning (knowing well that i will not be able to handle). right, things dont seem good and i dont wish for the worst. realised it is always when things became worst that I will think of giving up, not that i will, but just a thought.. i need to listen more...

WWJD? (:


13 days more to Japan...
less cab since last week (:
shall cont to inprove cash flow... haa
(discount the itouch first)

To You

Here I stand
Forever in Your mighty Hand
Living with Your Promise
Written on my heart

I am Yours
Surrendered wholly to You
You set me in Your Family
Calling me Your own

Now I
I belong to You
All I need
Your Spirit Your Word Your Truth
Hear my cry
My deep desire to know You more
In Your name
I will lift my hands to the King
This anthem of praise I bring
Heaven knows
I long to love You with all I am
I belong to You

thoughts: what a priviledge to be called the child of God.

Today's QT...

was reading daily bread online and today it was entitled, 'Whose side is God on?'

upon seeing the title, i find it weird... whenever there's a qns asking God, i will usually reversed the direction of the qns to myself. hence, am i on God's side?

it is dangerous to assume we are right with God when in fact we might not be.
the steps to be right with God - obedience to Him, Submissive. (i hope i did)

was telling cousin yest, how sometimes i wonder why i dont see a major change, the only difference i see, is the purpose of living, leading a meaningful life. (: and i told cousin sometimes i will wonder qns that may stumble myself but am glad i build my foundation on solid rock, which will always bring me back. yeah i do know need to be careful as well.. my prayer will be that i will always stay on His side. (:

i love this quote:

Instead of jumping into a situation with the presumption that God is on our side, we need to be certain that we are on His. — Julie Ackerman Link

what a nice reminder today.... (:

is this the first time i am so affected?
actually i guess it happened be4, when i was upset with the seniors back in sch.

i think being simple is not simple afterall... things u think are simple but mere men are really too complicated to be simple thus it pose as a problem to simple minded ppl. what an irony! (:
or maybe is just myself..

i just thot of blogging down my thoughts, be it a reminder to myself or to others likewise...
there are ppl watching how i am leading my life - family, friends, even the younger ones, let alone God. i really need to examine my life each day. His standard is soo hard!

thanks for the night, u guys made it better for me. esp the ice cream!

had bs with the girls from 34th, it was enjoyable and we shared with one another.i pray that God continue to guide me and wen as we lead the group. i do feel the pressure each time the matter is being brought up, i wonder if my decision was right, not thinking le, not doubting =P

today was reminded abt equally yoke. it is a common thing tat ppl ard me are facing..
i sorta realised it is impt to pray against this, before problems arise. isnt it a simple thing to follow? (i often asked myself), but at that time, i do felt the temptation was real. do hope you will understand this too, and not going through it like me.

i feel no meaning in things i am doing nowadays... esp at work, still trying though...
praying that the passion will be back....

QT this few days been reminding me of being christ-like. seem like ever since i prepare for 1 cor 15 on resurrection, and how i live it out for my faith and belief. rather apt. i do hope as i live each day, may God be smiling, that i can glorify Him in all i do.

guess the leading of the girls in bs these days build up my prayer life, thank God for that. really hope it gets better... gonna pray for tml's session, do believe it will be a good time of discussion. though didnt help much, as compare to how much it was done with me, will be praying, that's all i can do.

The Lord's Prayer

she ish so cute... (:

Ms.Swan - ATM

am soo happy today!

the day started well.. guess a big part goes to my early night rest yest (: 11pm!
(dad & mom were shocked when i said goodnight)

mom made my fav breakfast for the longest time... though is only french toast, but i simply love it..

these 2 is enough for me to remain smiley.

i was asked if i am feeling stress with stuff ongoing, do i feel like God is distant, and do i feel tired of growing up...

if given a choice, of cos i will wish that time can turn back to when i was still a child, with only homework that bother me. as we grow, we mature and responsibility gets bigger.. thus i will always tell children dont rush in growing, before u wish u were still a child. (:

but i dont grow alone! at least friends ard me grow old tog with me! haha...
there are time we can share woes and time we can simply laugh tog... to me, that's what makes my growing process more meaningful..

feeling rather lousy today.. wanted to call someone to ratter and whine... and didnt understand what ODB is telling me...
i dunch like this feeling, been praying..thank God it didnt last for long, felt better after i left.

finally let out what i have been laying inside...
it was painful, but i felt relieved (:
thank God for you, cant find anyone else that i can relate... so no choice!

went for aud's farewell on sun, saw familiar faces. it warmth my heart to see them.
spent some time sharing, the feeling is different.

felt that this post a little emo... okie till there only...

ah wen gonna lead worship for 2 sats, and she seek me to help her.. well been a while since i touch the guitar, e last was when i gave lesson to the girls?!?! haha...
hope i still remember... anyway got myself help to standby, dun laugh at me, i do admit i dunch play well haha.. but is nice to team up with her, nv tried before. so far the best i worked with is elisa (our impromptu and rehearsals over phone), other than those in church of cos.

okie, am looking forward to that for now... oh and the retreat! a nice get away from work... though still a long long long way...

i had a thought of changing my line... to do something i always want to be - that is to be a teacher. but i am not certain...

it reminded me of my applications after 'A'level, which i was given chinese to teach *faints*
i always wanted to teach maths, but i guess cos of the flop i have done to my further mathematics in 'A' that blew it off! ha! guess much credits goes to mechanics for this.

sis said it might be the path for me.. teaching can be exciting. esther shared sec is difficult since students are getting more and more different & harder to manage, but i guess that's where the challenge is, aint it? (:

not sure if this is what i want or God want me to.. prior to this, i had thought my path will be set for the coming at least 5yrs, that is to get my cpa soon and continue in the accounting line or to go into audit. guess the chat with esther arouse my passion for teaching, which is one reason why i continue to tutor so as to practice my skills/knowledge since after 'o'.

guess this can be a passing thought of mine, i may end up doing the same mundane stuff.. haa.. shall see how it will lead me..

felt bad that i have left you out of my mind for a long while. oops...
(to the extend you thought i changed my mobile no...) oh no.. i really feel bad...
should have ask how you have been doing...
okie am really sorry abt it...

yeah as i was reading through the old blog, missed ya so much!! (:
nearly spent everyday tog - that's becos i am not schling..
really thank the Lord for you - for sharing a portion of my life and it shall cont to be k!
thanks for bringing so much into my life. (:
through the ups and downs, it is just a process of growing and understanding each other more.

looking back at my old blog brings back lots of memories...
realised i posted a lot of prayers and sermons/sharing that i have learnt.
as i read, it inspired me... managed to change the template so it is not corrupted like what raq told me before.. and i haven seen her for a while...

why has this new blog became a self centered one? i remembered i started blogging so as to spread the love and to allow others to know the Big Daddy (my Lao Pa) i have...

okie, why am i remincising all a sudden... haa... maybe cos i started reading abt me in the old blog. the faith didnt change i am sure! (:

missed the good old time....

didnt notice that i have been saying 'sorry' most of the time. i came across someone telling me that should cultivate the habit of saying 'sorry' and this had become so...

i haven been thank-ed by ppl for so long JUST as well....

and you have been thanking me! i haven done much really.. i thank God for you as well, for being able to read my mind rather well (which can be scary), for the things you have taught/shared with me (for unpaid suppers, for ur nonsense, for ur lame stuff, for the only thing u will remind me - my 'mission' etc) haha... (it takes muscles to give u a diao face btw) if u asked me few years back, guess i wont even imagine talking so much to you.

hanging ard with cousin these past days, i dunno if what i have shared is right but it is what i will do. guess is just my character, might not be what God wants to teach u.. i have reservations when i tell ppl what they should do, i do not wish to claim the credits when thing goes right, neither do i want to be blame for the wrong suggestions i guess (not that you will).. (:

anyway all much for the day.. bedtime... 207am...