Seriously I hated it

I hated liars. Because I had a very bad experience. I hated it when I put 100% trust and in the end I found out is a lie. A lie is a lie. Whatever reason it is, if I asked and I was told a lie I will be very upset. Don't blame me for showing black face because it started from you.

How will I ever dare to put total trust? Is it that hard to speak the truth? Feels like men words cannot be trusted. Big fat liar. If that makes u happy, you can cont, I will discount whatever you said and I think that's the distance how far we can go.

Grandpa's demise

Grandpa lived a ripe old age of 98. I have no more maternal or paternal grandpa since 14, until I married Lawrence and I have the opportunity to call 'ah gong'. However, this ah gong had left us. He went in a peaceful manner which many ppl envy. 

How will I end my journey? Most impt this remind me of what legacy am I going to leave. Am sure ah gong left good memories and legacy to the children and grandchildren. :) 

Late night

Is late but I can't get to sleep. Alot of thoughts in my mind... Hmmm.. 

Feeling sian, feeling tired, feeling kinda alone.. 

Abby's first head up!

Usually for long naps, I will put Abby on her tummy. She will wake up with a cry because no one is helping her to get up. But ytd I found her head up so high! Awwww I am so proud of this little girl. Instead of disturbing her, I called mom and we both started taking photo of this girl! :) and of cos she doesn't smile when she see my polka dots cover -.- but after I removed it, she smiled at me!! Awww.. 

Wonder how many firsts I will be able to jot down for Abby! 

Today is also Abby's first time attending a church wedding! :) haaa she really can win ppl's hearts with her smiles.. :) good girl! She wore yi yi's new clothes for her and headband. :)

Abby's injection

Went for Abby's 1st dose of 5in1 and nuerococa (sth like this)..
She is such a cute girl, smiling all the way, crying only when the jab is in. I enjoyed watching her every expression, even when her face changed for the jab, it is priceless. Gear up next: 5th jul for the little one. :) way to go Abby!!

Up next for mama is back to work :( it is coming to an end so soon... I gonna miss her.. Taking care of her was still alright, esp since mama helps me too. :) can't take much pictures of her in the day soon.. Abby, don't grow up too fast yea, many things in the world u wish u dont have to face when u face them, so enjoy your childhood! :) I love u 小宝贝!

I always thought I can give my children a complete family where they grow well, be well manner and has good family value. I am not sure if I be setting a good example for her, but I know one thing I promise to teach her to always look to God. I don't think is hard for families to set good family value, just need to be one first.. I think I have a good family value, at least I grow up in one where my parents love us alot and we are considered filial. I think he failed big time walking away without greeting my mom or helping his mom with the heavy stuff. I don't think a 24yr old throwing tantrums in front of mom's friends is anywhere good. Ok, I heard he has his dad's traits. 

Going for jab

2 jabs :(

Smiling seeing doc after jab

Fever at night :( poor girl

Daddy sayang-ing her at night

Today in the morning.. 

Mama decided to take out 2 rubber duckies for her at bath.. :)

A much better Abby today! :)

Abby is 3 months old!

My dear precious baby is 3 months old today! :) she is soooo cute! I can't stop buying cute things for her.. 

And I hope what I hear today will turn out to be good news! :) 

Abby is week 12!

Time passes by so fast! Little Abby is turning 3 months soon! :) awwww.. Is a joy to see her grow stronger each day. I just love hugging her for she is sooooo huggable! :) 

She is such a smiley baby, who is not afraid of stranger (hmmm, may be a bad thing), but she definitely loves ppl talking to her! :P such a cute baby.. :) 

I pray that Abby will continue to grow strong and stay healthy! :) next tue gonna be Abby's injection again, I hope she doesn't develop too high a fever.. God, pls protect Abby.. Amen!! 

Abby is unwell....

Today took little Abby to see a doc. :( she was having a cough.
This little girl didn't let her discomfort get in her way, she was smiling and wanting some baobao which I willingly gave! :) I m so gonna miss her when I go to work... She was given a cough syrup or her phlegm n a nose drop.

Was clearing the email n saw one from WL. I was also reminded about the story of a woman whom ppl were throwing stones at (can't rem is from where), and Jesus said to let those without sin to throw at her, which nobody did. Urghh... For the last time Lord pls...

A shameless slut, a fugly whore, a bitch with a F***-up face n a messy life! It deserves all karma. Yes is a IT! Damn it. Better off be dead.

Ok, Lord I know I m being too evil. I wish I can curse, I wish there is a technology where I can turn the butt to the front! Sometimes I wonder why should I keep silent? But God,You reminded me from the bible, hai... I won't dare to go against Your word. Okie noted!

Awwww, I wish to kiss the floor of Europe!!!! Haaa!!!! But I also know gg means cost many many much much money!!! Haa.... Teo gonna have debts to clear I guess! :P

Goodnight...

Is time for bed but I didn't feel like sleeping, not that I slept in the day, in fact I didn't. 

I kinda missed those days I slept at 2am, think it was JC days. I had such difficulties to adjust back. I slept at 2am for a good long years, either surfing net or chatting on msn. There's no msn nowadays, and nobody I can find on Skype to chat at this time now. The ppl I used to chat seem to have slept early too. 

Wanted to put Abby to sleep early today but seems like she is a little cranky tonight, in fact seems like she is every thurs. only put her to bed slightly earlier than her usual bedtime. Well, slowly She will get there.. :) I enjoy carrying her sleeping in my arms, seems so peaceful. 

Abby is week 11!!

Didn't post last week.. Hahaa.. So shall post abt Abby from week 9-11! :) she grew so fast. 

Brought her to baby spa on 11/05/2013, her first time swimming. Haa witnessed by us and Aunty Elisa! :) Abby enjoyed herself! So cute of her. This little baby is so interesting.. Was I like that too when I was younger? :) may God continue to bless her and that she be a faithful child of God. :) 

Shopping!!

Though am hm in Sg, I feel like I am shopping in Europe too!! Haa.. Goodness..

Yea I like expensive bags, quality that counts ma.. Of cos if the hub buy I more happy cos is a gift ma.. Muhahahaha... From the very first coach bag I owned, which was from the bf, dunno who is the one who made me started the trend? But I kept all the bags and I interchange them as and well..

Teo had a kill in Europe!!! Ahhhhh... She bought an LV speedy for $900! Don't really know how much it costs here though.. Haa.. We are bags lovers! I knew I found the right kakis to shop :P

So true...

Happiness is natural but Joy is supernatural. Happiness depends on happenings but Joy depends on Jesus!

I like the above quote! Someone asked how has 2013 been? Well, looking back to the past 4months, I have changed from a married woman to a mother. It doesn't come that easy of cos, from gg through all symptoms of preg for 9months, is really Sth I wish that the men will go through. Otherwise, they won't understand the discomfort, pain, changes etc the women are gg through. Haa..

2013 I won't say is great but good so far. Abby's coming is a blessing and she has added vibrancy to the family. Everyone looks forward to seeing her. I see God's hand at work for many things. My prayer will continue to be the same.

Gonna embark a new portfolio when I go back to work! Gg to take over Dennis's portfolio - procurement. Gonna be abit scary.. But it will be a good learning experience..

Father, You know my struggles, please reveal Your plan and may it lessen the fear and pain. Let me feel the love once again.

Hmm.... Felt I didn't sleep well the past few nights. So tired n drained. But little Abby nv fails to make me laugh. Haa I love her so much that I kept kissing her! Soon she gonna have many pimples! Hahahaha!! How not to kiss??

Finally...

Time alone... :)

When Abby is sleeping, I can accomplish a lot of stuff, realized actually SAHM is not something I cannot do too. I like it when I have the time to make the house clean, or rather for the matter of fact more of doing the chores such as laundry and mopping/sweeping.

Some of the stuff I did while Abby was in her lala-land... Washing her clothes, washing our clothes, ironing our clothes, pumping milk!!!, showering!!!!! (Of cos after I showered her)... One thing I was glad, some of the items were dried and managed to keep em. I will tend to forget abt laundry that is being sun, since I seldom do them, but I am getting better. :) the handkerchief and diaper cloth are easiest items to dry. Ta-da, Kept!!!

Thinking of handkerchief sometimes just make me angst. It is a personal item, I was upset instead of getting it himself or asking the wife, he asked a colleague for help to make purchase. Seriously, sometimes I dunno if he knows where's the line. Yes, small things like this can make me angst because it tells a lot for a woman, not just me, ask other women ard. This time I nearly flared at him, sometimes I just turn away, slowly I will be numbed. Dunno in future, will we be like many parents nowadays where after their kids grow up, they each do their own stuff, staying tog but yet hm becomes just a place for resting. Hai.. I know he works hard, we will need to work harder for a family. Esp so for me since I attended the seminar. I thought it was interesting when one shared the wife is not married to fetch things (newspaper, shoes etc), ppl will call a dog to fetch. But some stuff I think doing it is just a way to show care and concern, even a glass of water each day or covering up with a blanket. Hmmm well then again, I may think like this doesn't mean he will think the same way right... Now I know why building a family is a lifetime learning process. In fact, character molding is also a lifetime process isn't it? :)

We went to visit the new hse with the little girl, she was up but she was more keen on the sky I guess. Hey Abby, the sky is the same everywhere, still the same sky. We are excited over the new hse, so high and windy. Finally after a long wait, it is here just a few more months away. Maybe when jul comes, I be blogging from the new hse. Haha! So *lame*..

Visited the first ID, initially I thought the hub will not like her thus not keen on what she presented. Well, think he has a good impression of her for now, shall look at a few more ba. Think is easier to engage an ID that can cater to most of our request and of cos within our budget. Soon, we gonna have a big hole. In fact, when Abby came, there was a big hole already. :) ask the hub, he is good at counting.

The next thing to look forward to is church camp! The first time we be bringing Abby out to msia! Well, unless we gonna buy our fans before church camp.. First time Abby gg church camp when she is 3.5 mths! :) so nice to be a baby. No worries, just cry when u are hungry or uncomfortable and someone will attend to u. I also want!!! :)

Teo is in Paris!!! Waiting for my loot *hopefully* and for niceeeeee photos!! Such a beautiful place... That made me miss USA too, another beautiful place for beautiful ppl like us!!! :) another beautiful place that I hasn't visited for a long time which always bring me back to the sweetest time.. Haa found a friend who took a nice pic of it and I love it!

Abby is week 9!! :)

My dear Abby is week 9.. :)
Her cries are getting louder, tears is flowing faster, appetite is getting bigger, but her smile is getting wider and her baby words are increasing! :)

Awwww such a cute little baby.. :)

Happy 2 months to Abby!

Ytd is Abby's official 2 months old!!
Such a joy u are Abby! :) mommy loves to grow old with u!!! :) u are a gem.. Grow up healthy & good hearted yea..

Abby baby is wk 8!

Abby is week 8 now.. :) she is growing fast!! :)

This week she also celebrated her daddy's bdae for the first time! ;) so fun to have her ard.. We also bought a new sling to carry her in! Hope Abby will like using it..

Abby is week 7!

My 小宝贝is week 7 old! :)
How fast time pass... Each day I see her, I want to hug n kiss her. Haa..

Really thankful to God for His protection upon Abby baby. Looking back at the blunders we made, she is still doing well. May God continue to watch over her..

Abby has been a joy n I missed her when I am away. Guess hub aka her dad will feel it too. She is just too cute.

From the day I knew of her existence, she will always be mommy's dearest... I am glad i made the right decision.. Love Abby so much! Muacks!

My little girl...

A baby song..

I came across this on fb.. It speaks of what I felt n I was so touched by it.. :)

At first you didn't lift your head;
You didn't know to smile.
The time before you knew my voice
Seemed such a long, long while.
I couldn't wait for you to roll,
And then to sit and clap.
And now you're off and crawling,
Not helpless in my lap.

Why didn't someone tell me
How fast a baby grows,
That every little baby stage
Soon comes, but sooner goes.

So I'll enjoy the fleeting time
Before you learn to walk.
And treasure every tiny noise
Before you learn to talk.

For soon you'll learn to walk,
Then run,
And talk and sing a song,
And never be my babe again.
The babe's forever gone.
Little baby, take your time,
For while you're tiny, you are mine.

Diane Woolley

Same same but different

Hahaa saw a similar pose that the father and daughter have.. Both surround by pillows each side to prevent falling.

Pic of daddy is dark! Cos it was taken sneakily when he is zzz... Haa!